Jaded.

You will not..and never be able stay by my side when i need a shoulder to cry on.

I don't wanna cry in my room.. on my own. I don't wanna contain the tears and pretend to be strong.

I don't wan just the companionship of my bolster, pillow when i had to cry it out.

I don't wanna be unhappy.

I just wanna be happy. I wan a simple life. I wanna have someone to share not just my happiness but my sorrow as well.

Popping pills will never solve the problems. i know.

I had in mind of the last resort. I don't wanna be left with no choice and to move to the step.

Grandma, Grandpa, Uncle.. please watch over me. If i had to leave, please come and take me with you.