Cuts deeply.

My world is like falling apart. Really it is..

Trust. How much do i understand about this word? What is the meaning of such a meaningful word?

Trust is as though our belief in things that we feel, see and hear. It's the touch in our hearts. We observe with our eyes, we feel with our heart and we hear with a clear mind. It is one-sided. Only with mutual trust prolly things will be on the positive side.

How easy it is to hide the truth.. yet it seemed to be the toughest to speak the truth.

I always believed in fairy tale. I thought i could be like Cinderella. I'm finally convinced that life just ain't that smooth sailing.

I have been going through the most awful period by far. I had never been in such mixed feeling. It's like my mind thinks this way, one way or another.. my heart tells me to do otherwise.

Life is fragile. I'm beginning to lose faith in everything.

I'm still adjusting myself. I had to prepare myself for the medical report which will be released on the following Wed. I can't believe what the doctor had to say when we met yesterday.

I wanted to look up for a window and jump off the building. It was merely a thought.

I'm praying in my heart. I hope the greatest fear in me will not happen in real life. I'm not prepared for anything yet.

I'm cutting out from all the crap.

I need to numb myself. Work. Drink. Late nights.



Well, you never seek to understand. You never knew how much i lost for the past weeks. My faith.. my principle.. my loving nature.. it shouldn't be this way.

Perhaps i shouldn't put up a strong front. I ain't no wonderwoman.

I hate being myself.


I asked for mercy. Leave me.. pain, sorrow, worries...

Friend "Happiness".. please come back to me. I miss you.