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Date: 15th March 2009

I had a lot going through my mind. Losing weight is never easy for anyone, yet it seems possible and hassle-free for me at this period of time. I had sucha pain going through the days at work. If it hadn't been for someone's sake.. if i hadn't gotta click with my closest colleague.. i wonder where i will land now. I would have quit the job for good. I'm no longer the 'Nana' i used to be.. impulsive act, insensible... i have grew stronger, much brave as compared to what i was before i graduated from uni.

How odd it is.. i transformed into a new soul in a few months time. I'm better at handling stress, though i cried a couple of times due to the high level of stress. I'm still learning to handle the pressure at work. I'm compelled to multi-task, in one way or another, it's advantageous to me.. i find myself indispensable to many people, i feel useful.. i feel happy to serve people.

I may not be happy with what i own in life, i may not be fully contended of the current flow.. nevertheless, i cherish every bit of it.

Recently, i have been experiencing the similar symptoms i had back then when i was ultra weak. I have been vomiting since weeks ago. It came naturally especially when my mind is filled with work issues.

This has to end soon.. otherwise, i know where exactly i will end up in.

i wanna be free from all the pain and discomfort...