Anti-depress/stress

Roller coaster ride has just ended. Well, apparently it is. However, it ain't reflecting on my mood.

There are many thoughts running on my mind.

I tried to do things which would spur my spirit, not working though.

I guess after a long period of putting up a brave front, wear and tear that is.

I told myself i won't rely on the anti-depressant pills. On the other hand, i also faced insomnia. I have to stay up till wee hrs and dozed off when i'm ultimately exhausted.


Jaded. I need to acquire ample rest. I'm contemplating to take the flu medicine in order to put myself to sleep. It's not right. I shouldn't.. or should i.. just for this last time?!

I resent making a choice.

I should just toss a coin, and let it decide for me.