in bestie's place now..

well..im here again to trouble my bestie to get my comp fixed..
basically i had him to get me a new hard disk, bigger disk space..
otherwise i don't have enough space to install my new printer software.

Benn here since mornin...supposed to reach ard like 9 but ended up reachin ard 11plus. Super super tired cos Nana haven been slpin well for the past few days..
started workin on thurs...

just for all of u friends to know...im all good...
work was relaxed..i have good colleague! just 1 and only colleague...loll..
luckily i had friends ard to acc me for lunch, so Nana is not alone.
both thurs n fri i had lunch with friends...

accompanied J for medical appt in town, then headed for some shopping.
Nana bought a nice polka dot blouse..its formal top...
n i had my hair cut really short...above shoulder now..
bestie and gf said i looked cute...so with this hairstyle plus the new top..
im gonna look comical..."cute" i mean! Lol...

so happy...piggy called this mornin...
im gonna see him soon.........which is like in 10 days time...
actually still long la huh...

oh.......im gonna work tmr....
i need to slp early....deprived of slp....
i missed darling BADLY!!! faster come home....

Sick

supposed to work today but i had it postponed to tmr...
i had a major cramp throughout the night, which led to insufficient slp.
nevermind about that...
i still vomited in the mornin....only felt better after poppin pills.

i've been takin a lot of medi lately....esp. these few days of red sea...
cramps is killin me!!

i've been so so busy since last sat...
first, sat was precious gf K's 21st bday. i was the Mc but ended up doing not much.
wore dress with horns on my head...i personally felt like a clown.

following day..met up with bestie for shopping at MS..while my gf T joined us later where we headed over to Vivo...
bestie got me a jeans from zara...loved it!!
We acc T for dinner...then bestie headed home while we girls headed to St James Power Station.

T & i went into dragonfly..Was ladies night...2 free drinks...
i must say they are very generous with the liquor..burbon was so damn strong la!!
we had our drinks then proceeded to mono..
we chilled at level 2...concept is like ktv pub....wasnt really fantastic.
the interior was cool though....
we had quite a bit of drink....then decided to head elsewhere...
cos it wasnt fun at all...

supposedly to duxton, but full house so we ended up at partyworld chinatown.
sucks..i was damn high then...vomited in the loo...T doesnt know...*lol..
reached home like 3ish...

next day...A came over to gym with me...
Nana diden work much cos my yi ma visited me in the mornin...*lol..
we chatted most of the time...

& we had to head down town to pass K & PS stuff..
He had a "match-making" session along the way...*lol...
Nana went elsewhere while the session went along..
passed K stuff...
PS accompanied both of us for dinner at MS..
then went over to Suntec to meet KB n sec sch mate.
ended up chillin at coffeebean...
4 guys & a girl...i tot im gonna be outcast...
but wasnt that bad though....*laughs..cos im a boy too!!! Wahaha...

right...yest...met up with K & A again....!!!
we had dinner at cwp...
Nana bought an all-in-one printer....happy happy....
finally i had my spoilt printer replaced!!
but there's always probs after another....
its pending for now...waitin for my bestie's rescue!!

as for today...
not going anywhere...i need ample rest......
as well as prepare myself for work tmr....

feelin rather down now....
my neighbour passed away last night...she's only 46 yrs old...
and today she will be cremated....
its on the way already...
i watched the whole ceremony....the mother had to hold this pot and walked 3 rounds the van where the coffin lie in there...
i felt sad for the family...i cried...
i don't wish that this day will come for any of my loved ones....
i rather to leave before any one of them.....
selfish thinkin....but i can't take any blow.....

darling i missed u....

its 6.12 to be exact!

slpt ard 11 last nite & i woke up at 5-ish.....

i don't know what is really going on with my body system...
im havin sleep deprivation.....
the worst thing to ever happened...when a person wants to sleep so badly but just can't shut those eyes & stop thinking about everything.

its funny...
i can't stop thinking about things in life.....
my mind keeps working 24-7...no joke...im serious...
anyone have any ideas of mind relaxing? like say pills? or any special activities?!

its been a long while since i last exercise, maybe i really should start to do so in a regular basis...which is hard....

be workin from next week till mid dec...got this temp assignment days back.
so i don't have to worry about stoning for the next 1 month plus..
i really wana work, not that i wana stay home & rot...

was a little feverish last nite. im glad its gone..
be meetin up with my friends to finish up with the last bit of work, cos...
1 day to go & it'll be my precious gf's big day!

talk about it...i haven started on what i should man.....

i missed darling badly...
i've used up half of blubber sessions...
another half to last me for 2 weeks plus....impossible...
im surely gonna exceed.....cos im a power blubber!

come on...let me sleep....

Fun, fun...Lotsa fun!

celebrated my bday with precious gf, "ge meng" bf & another full of philosophy bf(loll..) on wed...

they actually surprised me....i loved the surprises..loll...
Nana very easily contented...loll...
they got me this mini cake with hello kitty print on it......
super cute! n the cake tasted good too....
but my gf doesnt wana tel me where she got it from....*angry! lol...

we had fun @ the ktv...i was happy deep down....
the very first yr that i diden have darling with me on my bday.
i still had friends who care for me, & even took leave to acc me...
thk u so much, i was really touched.....i love u guys...really....

after ktv..i left to meet up with another gf..
we went to devils to support a friend(my gf's friend) who partcipated in the pool competition.
although they diden win, but their spirits was high....
maybe high on the beers that were on the house..was a lot to drink..
& i was asked to drink a couple of times, cos they knew that it was my bday..
eh....beer sucks....

i only knew the one(K) who took part in the competition, while the rest..one of them was K's bro, rest were his friends who were like all underage? young chaps that i saw for the very first time..i felt old...loll...

competition ended..K said celebrate bday for me...& we left for a bar situated within ngee ann poly...its called "halo bar"...
quite spacious..& had ktv rooms...
we had one of the rooms, songs were pretty new..SRS was good too...
i had lotsa fun!!!!!! sometimes its really fun to be with young pple...makes me feel livelier!!

n then yest i met up with a guy friend that i haven seen for ages...
diden really enjoy the day spent, cos i don't like pple who doesnt respect me...
luckily my gf came to rescue me!!
we met up the 2nd day......popped by K's workplace to chat up with him.
They always have the funniest jokes to laugh of....

oh...& at night, we chilled at the Hark music cafe..
so happened that they had the live band singing competition...
so we decided to stay & watched....
well...i must say......my gfs can sing much better...haha...

the cafe closed @12...
so we headed to mr bean to further chill....
all bcos we had to wait for my darling to come pick us!! arghh...
exact time that we left selegie...130am i think....
super super tired!! brain drained man!!!

slpt at 4 & then i woke up like 1-2 hrs ago...
im definitely not gettin enough slp.....
im hungry.........i want food...
i shall go wake darling up & make him bring me out for lunch!!

Im 22 TODAY!!

ok..im one yr older today...i've gotta be more mature n independent!

not that im childish, but im still very "baby"....
im timid..yes...although i acted like im so crazy to tk up any dare all the time...
in fact, im timid for goodness sake!!

be meetin my precious gf n a bf for ktv in 3 hrs time...
no idea why i woke up so early..like 8am?! excited maybe..
im quite tired still...maybe i shld slp for a little while more before headin out.
cos its most prob gonna be a long long day....

thk u for all the smses wishes...Muacx...

High in spirit...

met up with two of my gfs last evenin...
in a way to update each other as well as to celebrate my bday.

they got me a bag...yesh..a bag again...haha...
looks like everyone thinks that i need bags...but...
in fact i have a lot....seriously i have no place to keep my bags now! loll..
but...thks gals for the pressie! i like it!!

be meetin my sweetheart dis evenin for dinner...
if she really get me a dress as my bday pressie, i'll wear n tk a pic n upload soon...smiless....
i missed my sweetheart, haven seen her for a mth plus....

eh huh...as for tmr...actual day! i'll be celebratin with my precious gf n another 2 bfs..going to ktv...sing song..my Fav!! hehe..
after ktv no idea headin where....
maybe my close gf might wana meet me...

comin sat n next sat...my precious gf & another gf's 21st bday!
my goodness...Nana broke like siao...
i think im gonna rob the bank soon...loll...

im so happy....suddenly i realised i've so many friends, more than i know...ha...

my bday week..

already after 12, its the start of a new wk again...

2 more days to my big day! dis week i'll be busy busy...loll..
can't wait to meet up with frens that i haven seen for sometime..smiles..

tickles in my heart......

i slpt well for the past 2 days...

its late....Nana shld rest soon...nites..

lalalalalalalaaaaa.....

Nana is so so happy today...

Jeff gor & Jes jie surprised Nana with a early bday cake...smilessss...
it was really a big surprise cos my bday is like in another 4 days time, i guess they might forgot about it due to hectic work schedule. hee...
loved surprises...thanks a lot!!

met up with bestie this aftern. had lunch n chilled for a couple of hrs.
bestie got me many stuff...thks dear...hehe..
we took plenty of photos. stupid faces for most of it..hehe...
will upload as soon i get them upload to my comp.
im goin to upload to friendster..the ugly ones..haha...
luckily bestie's ah bang only bluetooth nice ones to his mobile phone.


there's been this tingling feelin my heart...

im gonna meet up with a few more friends next week..
Nana wants to meet up with friends to find out how they're doing..

n prolly fri or sat be heading over to tanjung pinang to visit my dear cus n sicked aunt.

lalalalalala...

slp well tonight....smilesss....

Everyday is a Happy day..

such a pleasant mornin...

slpt @2am, woke up just a while ago. i did have 8 hrs of slp, but somehow its not enough.
it'll be better if i cld slp for another hr, before i head down to CWP to meet up with bestie.

last evenin met up with a schnauzer named Aspen ng..female...my friend's doggie..
seriously i liked Aspen a lot..wanted very much to play with her n even talked to her but my friend was around. he might prolly think that im insane or something.

took a couple of photos with aspen while my friend was away twice to get drink n also to drive his car over to where we were situated.
aspen is adorable...she doesnt bark as far as i know.
i loved the way she lie flat on the stone table, which my friend said she's super-man lookalike..loll..

hmm...celebrated darling's bday last night with daddy n mummy.
presented my little artwork..which took me one whole day to make it complete n perfect..smiles..

anyhow..i hope to see aspen again...sooon....
been lookin the photos that i took with her.....awww.....misses...

there is improvement..yeah!

im feelin super super fresh today...


i think its bcos i slpt early yest..ard 12plus...n woke up at 8plus dis mornin!! smiles..
i managed to slp 8 hrs..although to certain group of pple...slpin at such an hr n then wakin up so early will be killer. loll..

i have recharged...presenting a happy Nana! ..smiles...

be headin out soon...
meetin up with friend to see his cutey doggie! i wished i have a doggie too. but my mummy disagree...so i can only admire my fellow friend's doggie! -sigh-

after hangout, will be headin over to cck home to get the room tidy n clean..
so that when darling comes back...he can have a clean room to slp in.

its darling's 23rd bday today! Hapy bday Darling!!! love you millions!!

home sweet home

im home for the whole day...i can't believe it myself..

im too tired to head out..wanted to tk a short aftern nap but ended up doing household chores.
swept and mopped the house...perspired quite a bit. its a form of exercise..smiles..

chat up with some long uncontacted friends online..
2 still in ns, while 1 already ord. and that 1 actually don't rem me n can still happily add me in msn..lol..
guys who are either in ns or just ord are living life backwards...
either short term memory or not up to date..lol..

i had really foolish thots...silly Nana to even think about it!
wake up ur mind, Nana! ha....

somehow im feelin so much better today....get my butt off the chair n worked abit on something does make me relaxed..rather than sittin infront of the computer...

i MUST slp early tonight. *crossed fingers..ha..

To: all friends who read my blog

my fellow girlfriends n boyfriends..

my recent entries have been reflectin on my pessimistic self..
in fact, im easily depressed lately. but i always make it a point that if i were to come out with my friends, i have to be the sunshine..to enlighten every of my friends.

i have always been the cheerful, bubbly, loud, crazy or even the funniest Nana..don't worry i'll always be what i am...
although i haven been able to smile as much, laughin seemed hard too..
but i promised i will be fine.

next week will be a fresh start for me..
steppin into a new phase in life...turnin 22..old enough to be more mature, independent and sensible.

this time im goin to pick myself up...im gonna be stronger than before.
nothin will shake me...

one thing...too many friends who have problems be it love or some other matters..
im acting as a counsellor..slowly becomin like one of them. bad isnt it?
i ever tot of being a psychiatrist, but i know i will end up being a patient myself.
i have always been like a counsellor since sec sch days.
i can be a really good listener, n give advices that i think is right for each of my friends.
i never despise any one of my friends even if they did anything wrong.
so dont be silly to think that i have forsake the friendship..
i cherished every one of u that comes into my life.
i believed in Fate...fate brought u pple into my life, so i'll treasure all of u.

i will continue to be the shining star among my friends to make all of them happy.
rem...im always here for all of you..
wish that everyone be happy...


n that i will be happy too...Love u all..

another slpless nite..

touched down at home awhile ago...

was a pretty long day...

ktv twice with my friends..caught the partyworld competition (semi-final)...
not many "amazing" singing..was a pity that my gf's friend diden make it to semi-final.
we sang tgt and i must say that...his singing is fabulous..
jacky cheung + aaron kwok...where to find...
was pleasing to my ears..*smiles..
another friend's friend participated, bumped into him.
he's in the revival round....lets hope he'll make it to the final.
sl..i'll pray for jay..*smiles

met up with bestie for a short while, he said that i looked better today.
but only after bestie said that..something made me upset again.

human just contradict themselves all the time. whether we mind or not, its no longer an issue.
i just came to realised that i should zipped up my mouth, talked less, smile more..
being easy-going isn't really always an advantage.
i shouldnt have open up to anyone..
i shouldnt have said so much...

visited my gf's friend @ Lollipop. no crowd...pretty nice pub..
i had the sofa seat all to myself while my gf played dice with her friends at a diff table.
sang a couple of songs..


i should slp now, but i can't...not as yet.
maybe i should pop a flu medi again to assist me in slpin well..
drowsy then knock out..
no dreams or nightmare...

no idea how i get a cut at my back muscle area, bleedin..
im already a low blood patient, can't afford to lose more blood..
been feelin weaker lately. late nites, insomnia..
i better tune back my lifestyle..

my 22nd bday is drawin near..wonderin if my gf was serious about takin off on that day to acc me.
otherwise, i think i'll be rottin at home. cos darling wont be here with me.'

i feel lonely...i hate loneliness and emptiness.

why can't i just slp proper 8 hrs?

frankly..im still very tired now.

i diden slp much i guess. the whole nite i was tossin n turnin..
its insomnia..ihate it..

just popped a flu medi, slpin pills prescribed by doc doesnt help anymore.
i think im in critical condition. if i continue like this, i will die sooner or later.
maybe im thinkin too much while i slp. but...doesnt seemed to be the case too.
i used to have lotsa dreams..quite a lot of nightmares, but lately not haven dream much.

im still kinda moodless...
i better try to cheer up. otherwise if i were to meet up with my unhappy gf..i'll make things worst. i have gotta listen, give advices or whatsoever that i can or should.

wakin up so early in the mornin = bored n stoned..
nobody is going to entertain me at this hour.

maybe i should just go back to slp.

whats becomin of me?!

im totally moodless, listless..im as good as a living dead.

met up with my close gf to shop ard before meetin up with bestie for dinner.
bestie said i looked like haggard, as if like my family fall apart, my pet passed away or whatever the worst scenario that one can think of.
really that bad?!...

i've actually picked up myself months ago after all the setbacks. just when im already well n strengtenin..things happened for bad...
ok..somehow its already a past...but it hurts deep in when i recalled the very moment of conflict. while i was on the bus on my way home, i started thinkin n then i teared..
almost gonna waterfall..thats me..very emotional.

feelin lousy enough. once i touched down at home..my "lovely" bro made me go out to help him get something. not that im not willin, but can he just look at me...my pathetic face..
im tired..cannot concentrate on doing anything..
eatin a proper meal is tough too..cos my mind cannot stop thinkin.

sometimes i just wonder...why m i borned with such a character that i dunno how to reject pple.
dunno if its good or bad..i guess both...

wanted very much to sing but my gf woke up late..n she had little time to spare cos she need to work in the evenin..so we had to give it a missed.

lousy mood..can't make myself smile..just wana stone...
i dunno why.....
but i'll make sure tmr i'll be all fine!!

bestie got me a bag for my bday...nice..

come on NANA....cheer up!!! :)
tmr will be a better day...since everything is fine now!!

argh...

Holly shit man!! im going through tremendous pain now. sorry if it sounds very uncivilised la!
i poo-ed stones man, my stools damn bloody hard la!! N then i saw blood...oh mother...

i hate it!!! im constipated again!! haven been drinkin much water..must start to gulp water man!!

starting of a new week...past wkend wasnt too good. Quarrel leads to crying...n ended up with a pair of super swollen eye. worst still i had visitors back home. so when i reached home, my uncle & aunt shld have seen my swollen eyes..i diden tok much to them though.

felt kinda consoled when my neighbour's black cat(blackie) followed me to my doorstep. somehow there's still a cat there for me to talk to when im upset.
how i wish i had a pet...i diden had cat food for blackie..blackie & brownie finished all the cat food that i had. haven got time to replenish...
its rainin now, perhaps later..
by the way, blackie & brownie are stray cats that my neighbour sort of took care of..
i'll feed them...talk to them whenever im home alone..
brownie is cuter...she's been here for yrs...
gettin thinner that's why must feed it with more food..


yest aftern headed to JB for food with a friend n friend's friend.
had bah ku teh...it was my brunch. i haven had that since dunno how many donkey yrs ago.
afterall, its still not bad la..

after brunch. headed to wash car. saw this very cute puppy, played with it while waiting.
was just a couple of hrs in JB then we headed back to sg.

was good..cos i gotta rest my mind n not think so much. seriously, i was quite upset with things which happened last wkend. first was friends..n then next r/s...
life can never be full...not unless we learn to respect n accept each other's differences.
it works the same way for both friendship & r/s.

too many unhappy friends ard me..i wish i have the ability to cheer up everyone of them.
N when i finally fulfil the wish, im sure i'll be happy myself too..
its a cycle..one affect another, n it goes on n on..

be meetin up with my girlfriend in a while. its been a wk since i last met her. usually i see her like 2-3 times a week. we were so closed. n then suddenly she seemed like avoidin.
later then i found out...it was a misunderstandin!
after tellin me some of her personal matters, she tot that i don't want to be her friend anymore.
Silly her....i'll always be there no matter what happens...
that's what friends are for..

ya...also met up with my poly-mates after jb trip yest.
we had a good time catchin up.....took many pics......
i loved all my friends!
n for my dear SL, im surprised that u r still readin my blog.
will update more for ur sake k!
i miss u so much! love u n K so much!!

tonight be meetin up with my bestie as well.
looks like the actual week of my bday i'll be a lonely being, cos all my friends r meetin me dis week...
anyone who have some temp assignments to intro pls inform me.
im lookin out for 2 mths temp cos im startin my studies in dec..

more updates soon....