whats becomin of me?!

im totally moodless, listless..im as good as a living dead.

met up with my close gf to shop ard before meetin up with bestie for dinner.
bestie said i looked like haggard, as if like my family fall apart, my pet passed away or whatever the worst scenario that one can think of.
really that bad?!...

i've actually picked up myself months ago after all the setbacks. just when im already well n strengtenin..things happened for bad...
ok..somehow its already a past...but it hurts deep in when i recalled the very moment of conflict. while i was on the bus on my way home, i started thinkin n then i teared..
almost gonna waterfall..thats me..very emotional.

feelin lousy enough. once i touched down at home..my "lovely" bro made me go out to help him get something. not that im not willin, but can he just look at me...my pathetic face..
im tired..cannot concentrate on doing anything..
eatin a proper meal is tough too..cos my mind cannot stop thinkin.

sometimes i just wonder...why m i borned with such a character that i dunno how to reject pple.
dunno if its good or bad..i guess both...

wanted very much to sing but my gf woke up late..n she had little time to spare cos she need to work in the evenin..so we had to give it a missed.

lousy mood..can't make myself smile..just wana stone...
i dunno why.....
but i'll make sure tmr i'll be all fine!!

bestie got me a bag for my bday...nice..

come on NANA....cheer up!!! :)
tmr will be a better day...since everything is fine now!!