My parents are out of town and have yet to come home..im feelin rather lonely and depressed within me.

It wasnt due to any unhappy accounts. Depressed for the reason that i felt helpless towards some issues that would happen in life. During ageing process, we will be bound to losing some things or people, and that we havent got a choice. How sad. I have been watchin a drama lately, and deduced from it that i shouldnt pin too much hope in any prospect. The practical way would be strive hard and keep runnin ahead, never look back. Im not as pessimistic as i was a couple of years back, but there is a little bit left flowing in the blood. Maybe its just in me. And its just this little mistake that we made, and it can never be erased from memories. This mistake has kept me strong. Ironically, should have brought me down.

Yesterday, there was an arguement btwn darling and I. It made me realised how imperative i was to him. Somehow, its the hardest task to get the men to speak his heart with their pride and high self-esteem. And so, many words were often left unspoken. However, surprisingly, i heard words that melted my heart. It touched me deeply. Both of us felt that we fell short of one another's expectations. We were always on our toes puttin in effort to maintain the relationship, to delight each other's life to content. Most importantly, we wanted the best for one another. That is the special effect when two are in love. Its more than just courtship, but have developed into kinship. Thank you God to have brought such a wonderful and perfect man into my life. Im contented.

I always wanted unselfishlove and concern. Its the saying that we do what to people and they would do the same to us. Prolly fifty-fifty. We should just be true to ourselves and the people around us, and don't expect the same return. At times, it can be a defect return. Im leavin behind the miserable thoughts and memories, and live a new life from today. :) As i know that i have loved ones by my side.