Addicted....

to MAHJONG!!!!!!

I planned to stay home this weekend.

But... i ended up shopping with Luv.

While we were having dinner at Breko(again!!), i suggested mahjong. I was so enthu that i immediately rang up peeps.

The game started 11ish anf ended like 4ish.. then we crapped for another hr. I knocked out shortly after i got home. I realised i was holding on to my cell phone, and a msg was not sent out.

I was kinda distracted during the game. Received msgs that affected my spirit. Rather disappointed. I don't wanna play mind games. Just let the matter rest.

I need to rest now..

Justice

I don't know if it's doing us good, but somehow i'm taking it as a privilege.

In order to avoid double standard between the our team and the corporate team, my manager suggested that as of yesterday our team have to knock off either on time or latest 630. As a matter of fact, it's pretty hard to comply with. Well, i care less since it was announced to the team. I left before 7 yesterday and even earlier like before 6 today.

Put work aside. I met up with Zen for dinner last night. While i waited for him, i went to the library to read up some magazines. The last time i stepped into a library was like 1 years back. It feels good and reminded me of the good old days with the girlies. Received a gift from Zen. I appreciate the gift and the thought of getting me something during his hongkong trip.

Erm.. looks like i really can't put aside work. I'm starting to think about the outstanding issues. Though i'm on half day tomorrow, it doesn't make me feel less stressful. Well, it's just in me. The good thing is.. i didn't take the pills at all. However, i'm feeling the acute pain in my abdominal area. It's either one or another.

Gonna head for the U/S scan for my kidney. Hence, i'm on half day pm tmr. I will be heading back to City Hall. Looking forward to join my colleagues at Balaclava for drinking. Time to release myself. Whether i get drunk, faint or worst.. i'm gonna just loosen up.

Jaded.

You will not..and never be able stay by my side when i need a shoulder to cry on.

I don't wanna cry in my room.. on my own. I don't wanna contain the tears and pretend to be strong.

I don't wan just the companionship of my bolster, pillow when i had to cry it out.

I don't wanna be unhappy.

I just wanna be happy. I wan a simple life. I wanna have someone to share not just my happiness but my sorrow as well.

Popping pills will never solve the problems. i know.

I had in mind of the last resort. I don't wanna be left with no choice and to move to the step.

Grandma, Grandpa, Uncle.. please watch over me. If i had to leave, please come and take me with you.

Rach's wedding

I felt so happy to be part of the wedding. To see through this whole event. Most importantly, i know Rachel has found the right man who will take good care of her.

It's really sweet. It is absolutely taxing to plan and pass through the chain of activities till the very moment happens. But it's all worth it.

Met up with some juniors at the wedding dinner. It's great to know that everyone of them are doing fine be it work or studies.

I have been thinking how do i want my wedding to be like.

Anyway, met up with Yo and Claudia after the dinner. Luv and her bear joined us for a while before they left for their 'hot date'. lol.

The usual plan.. either drink or play pool. Yo and I headed to pool fusion to play pool. Ended ard 3ish and we made our way to Mac for supper!! Fries fries.. can't do without it. I'mma big time potato fanatic!!

I feel darn fat!! been eating so much. Weigh a little heavier, which shouldn't be happening. Hence, diet starts from tmr onwards.

Not heading anywhere today. Be a good girl. Stay home and rest.

Off day..

Took a day off today.

Met Luv for shopping in town. Satisfied with the items bought.

Had dinner. then continue to shop till Mun joined us, and we headed to Breko for drinks.

Recently, i'm kinda addicted to drink beer before heading home. It helps to sleep better.. seriously!

Anyway, i wish i had a mahjong session tmr. However not. Colleague, Emily jio-ed for BBQ at Bukit Timah. No idea where and who are the people going. I just agreed upon asking. lol.

Talk about mahjong. I had my virgin game with my colleagues Jeremy, Roderick and Yo. We played till like 3ish. By the time i reached home was like 4, and finally when i lied on the bed.. was already 4ish. I only slept like 1 hr odd, and was late for work due to heavy traffic jam.

Luv and Mun jio mahjong for this coming sunday. And i already have a booking on the following week. Looks like it's a new hobby for me. Heh.

I guess i'm slowly taking off the troubles and worries off my mind.

Guys and girls, i'm coping well. Thank you for the concern showered. I'm blessed with such lovely friends/colleagues.

I'll be the bubbly Nana in no time. :)

Time to hit the sack. Working tomorrow.. sian-ed. Nono..i should look forward.. sleepy head.. sweet dreams..

Anti-depress/stress

Roller coaster ride has just ended. Well, apparently it is. However, it ain't reflecting on my mood.

There are many thoughts running on my mind.

I tried to do things which would spur my spirit, not working though.

I guess after a long period of putting up a brave front, wear and tear that is.

I told myself i won't rely on the anti-depressant pills. On the other hand, i also faced insomnia. I have to stay up till wee hrs and dozed off when i'm ultimately exhausted.


Jaded. I need to acquire ample rest. I'm contemplating to take the flu medicine in order to put myself to sleep. It's not right. I shouldn't.. or should i.. just for this last time?!

I resent making a choice.

I should just toss a coin, and let it decide for me.