Gimme the ray of light...

I had updated a new user picture hoping that it reflects the happier side of myself.

To be frank, i am feeling confused and lost. Its like suddenly i can't catch hold of what i want, and it puts me in this jittery situation not knowing how and why did this has to happen.

Most of my friends think that i am a calm and peaceful soul, and it kinda compelled me to be fixed in such an image and character. I do have my fair bit of complication in life somehow not to make it clear as it doesn't really help the situation at any point in time.

Well, my resolution of all time would be to bring happiness to everyone and anyone taking part of my life. Due to that, i have to be on my toes and keep up the lively spirit. Then sometimes i wonder why do i have to work so hard in this area when i already lost control of my own life.

It's critical. I am absolutely one of a kind, the pessimistic sort of person.

I am facing a psychological crisis. It's nuts.

Crazy people do crazy things. Unhappy people stays unhappy. Pessimistic people continue to sink into their own world.

The thought of running away keeps on haunting me. I MUST get out of this crisis.

Bless me. Amen.