It has been a while...

About a week since i last updated. This very day, my BABY my love made his way to Thailand for NS activities. I absolutely and seriously missing me from here onwards even though i was still with him this morning.

We stayed up till very late hour and had a wonderful night together. I Liked the way he assured me of his safety and the way he expressed of how much he wanted me to be extra careful + less clumpsy. Baby, rest assure that i will be well and fighting for the exam and coming new term. Till i see my baby, i will have 3 weeks to entertain myself. Nevertheless, i have planned a row of activities for Dec. Besides the PK contest with Yoga Lin & rest that i certainly hope to be selected as one of the contestants, in addition, there will be a Xmas chalet + poly mates get-together nite, Xmas Eve Bbq with Sec sch mates, Post Xmas + Pre New Yr Celebration with the musketeers and more...... That will be sufficient to last till baby comes home. Not that i only spend time with friends when baby is out of town, i usually make the effort to meet up with my friends on top of that i don't want to be lonely as i imagined. When i was home alone last nite and baby was out to attend one of the rower's wake...i felt terribly fearful of the silence and loneliness despite having the Tv set at a considerably loud volume. Pretty shaken and upset with the Dragon boat incident, and so was baby. One of them was his Sec, Poly mate. Furthermore, he joined the dragon boat with him and another friend while dropped out half way. Life is really unpredictable and it resorts to destiny. Just bear in mind to love and care for your family and friends more than expected in order to live no regrets in case we leave the world before them.

May the 5 rowers find peace in heaven. Always remembered by Singapore and all their loved ones.
A clip of Reuben ..




Im so gonna miss my baby at the same time worry about the living conditions and stuff he encounter at a distant country. May mercy and blessing be with him throughout and sees him through till he comes home. Amen.

Pa started on a new job today, and hopefully he likes it. Otherwise, i will make him quit as its pretty redundant for him to work. Bless Pa.....hugs!

Alright.... exam is on this friday. I have completed the OB assignment. Revised a bit for the OB exam. And its time for me to continue the revision......

Looking Green.

Been sicked since tue. Still not fully recovered. Im praying hard it wouldn't worsen tonight and not tmr as i have a paper to take in the aftern.

Slpt almost the whole day yesterday. Baby was around to take care of me and pat me to sleep. To mention that baby was sicked too, and mummy said that it was most likely that he brought over the germs and infected me. Well, after all he made it up by staying by my side to take good care of me. :)

At least im feeling better as compared to yesterday. Totally bedridden. I barely revise for exam until this morning. Feeling kinda drowsy at this point, so im gonna hit the sack and wake up to chiong through the night.

Baby left for camp this morning and im missing him already. No one to pat me to sleep. :( And the thought of having him to be away from next wed onwards until late Dec makes me depressed. This weekend will be the last weekend to see him, thereafter... i will only getta hear from him once in a while. Sob.

MCB paper tmr. Good luck to myself. OB assignment due next thurs, i pray that i could finish on time. The following day will be OB paper. Such a heavy load in two weeks. The uni has very poor management and allocation for academic matters. Disappointing. Sleepy head. Nite.

wholly satisfied............

Met up with bestie after class. Dinner was at Far east the usual diner, and both of us ended up smelled like.... argghh... its like as if we cooked for the whole damn day, yes that bad. The thought of it simply turns me off. Well, accompanied him for some shopping before we parted ways. Bestie went home while i met up with Tracy for k session. Oh yea.. Bestie brought me a piece of cake that would be selling at his pub restaurant. Chocolate carrot cake, fab-u-lous!!!!Looking forward to patronise the pub restaurant soon. And its gonna be after exams. Brrr...

Touched down at home ard 12ish. Washed up. Chatted with my parents. Supposedly to call yx buddy, but the conversation between my parents and i dragged for a while longer. He should have hit the sack by now. Classmate dropped me an sms to ask if she could ring me up to ask Qs, but im afraid i can't be ms. goodie. Im brain drained. Dehydrated. Exhausted. Without my soul, an empty shell for now.

I seriously need more than ample rest. Extra and more... its almost impossible that i would happily tell someone that i have enough rest or sleep on one fine day. I see myself getting heavier eye bags and even darker eye rings for the next few days. First exam paper is on fri, and i have an assignment to rush for the deadline is due next week. Stress-ed. Further to that, following fri last paper. Very kind of the uni to allocate the exams and assignment deadlines so close in dates. Darned.

Baby called me earlier on. My poor boy has fallen sick, so i hoped that he could get mc tmr head over to my place and i will take goodie care of him. Good news tmr.. please!! Missing baby...


Morning class = wake up early. Sians.........

Maybe better................

Feeling rather tensed up, hence i called and chatted with bestie on the phone last night. We had a long conversation up till 3am. Woke up abt 2 hrs ago...shagged. I have the temptation to hit the bed right now, but i can't. In a while, i have gotta shower and prepare myself for school..the last lecture for mcb. Well, having to chat with bestie, makes me feel like way better now.

Anyway, met up with musketeers and wn on sat. Had dinner at Fishermen's Wharf. Nothing fantastic about the fish & chips. Thereafter, we headed to 'Shin' to drink. Sort of a bday celebration for both yx & ps. Perhaps i was tired and in a way mentally unprepared, ended up vomiting a couple of times. I was very well stable despite feeling like i was gonna merlion anytime at the later part of the night. Tracy was at 'black pearl' which was along the stretch of pubs, and she dropped by to see me for a while. Both of us had a part to sing for the song 'mei yi ci xiang ni' by coco. Andy left earlier, and we were down to 5. Our stay at the pub ended around 3am. Had supper at the coffeeshop next to the pub, and headed to Mustafa. It was weird. However, as promised and for the sake of the bday boy yx who have not been there not even once. Shopped for a while, and i got myself a watch from there. Like it a lot. :) I have always wanted to get it and i felt elated as it was a cheap and good buy. Home sweet home, knocked out at 6ish. Woke up the following afternoon and had porridge prepared by Baby. My heart was filled with love to have brunch specially done for me. :) Stayed home the whole day, supposedly we watched the dvd 'the last legion'....however, i dozed off in the midst of it. When i woke up, was evening time and daddy gorgor were already home. Watched variety show for a bit before we headed to fetch mummy. We had dinner at Bedok Fengshan 85 hawker, sent Baby to camp.. then dropped me at my place before mummy and daddy headed back home.

Alright.. and here are some photos we took at the prawning ponds.

That is Jac & colleague..



The ladies patiently waited for the prawns to get hooked up.



Jac & I...



A beautiful sight from Luv's backview.



Luv & I.. i insisted we held on to the fishing rod. Heh.



The ladies get rather impatient.. one with folded arm & the other putting her hands at the waist. Ha.



Me, Jac & Luv. First time prawning for Luvs & Jac our mentor.



Ended the night with smiles... :)



Hmm....time to wash up and head to campus. City campus as named by APMI KAPLAN. so lame. As if we have like sub-urban campus too. Lol.

Be meeting up with Bestie... yeah yeah..... good day!

Prawning - First contact with this activity.

Touched down at home abt an hr ago. Went prawning at Bishan. There were 7 of us altogether. Well, i was hoping that i would catch at least one prawn. Unfortunately, i clocked the hours and ended with zero catch. Luv managed to catch one. Ha. Jac and the bunch obviously were more experienced, hence their returns were way ahead of ours. Pretty fun. And with one sick baby around, i managed to tahan till wee hours having to engage in the so-called boring activity.. just like fishing. Heh. I do like fishing anyway.

I had free ride to and fro. Didn't need to pay a cent for the 2 hours prawning session. I fork out zero dollars. Feels strange. Nevertheless, gotta thank Jac for the rides. And to Luv's dardi for the treat to drinks and prawning. =)

Just popped a flu medicine as i do not have spare sleeping pills. I need it to ensure i get sufficient beauty sleep. Tmr will be another longg day, so i need a lot of rest.

Its already 6am. Baby will book out abt 3-4 hrs later and head over to my place. Im gonna see Baby real soon. Can't wait...

Headache. Backache. And a little upside-down feel. Better hit the sack now.

Companionship.

I will be out tonight. Baby won't be booking out until Sat morning. I don't want to stay home even though mummy and papa around. I can only talk to them till latest 1am and sweet dreams. That will leave me feeling lonely, insomniac.......

Hence, the plan tonight will be prawning. Confirmed. Be heading to Bishan Park with Jac & Bf, Luv & her Dar di, myself and some other people who might join but im not sure who they are.

Right...i can't wait to see Baby real soon. I need someone to pat me to sleep.

I carry my thoughts everywhere i go.

Sounded way too much of a burden that i carried along with me in thoughts. I obviously needed more care and concern. Right.. and whole lot of attention. Yeap.. call me an 'attention seeker' or anything of that sort. I felt really low in morale in thinking wise. Strange feelings come and go. Many a times, it was uncontrollable. Mood swing? or even Mood-less?!

I am unsure. However, i know every well that i am not in the right state of mind. The thoughts in me simply ran wild.. far far away... its all sorts of imagination or situations i pictured in my mind that will unlikely happen. Well, to be positive hence im convincing myself that it wouldn't happen. Missy Worst Scenario.. subconsciously, i felt the need to be prepared for the worst. Sounds silly.

Anyway, after a night of tossing and turning in the bed i woke up with fairly good spirit, and headed to campus. In fact, i had a severe back ache from midnight up till morning. I also had a poor appetite but i managed to down a slice of bread with coffee for breakfast. About 6-7 hours later, i touched down at home after lesson and had early dinner brown rice and vege prepared by mummy. At that point of time, the appetite did not get any better. Stoned a bit before i headed out to amk to meet Jac. The last time we met was at the Shape Run which was roughly two months ago. Had a lot to catch up. We relished on the good memories back then in secondary. All the cranky and silly happenings that made us angried, upset, teared, laughed, overjoyed became the best memories ever. Both of us had so much to recap and simply laughed to our heart's content. A polymate, Yx joined us about an hour before we headed home. I guessed the meet up has made me a happier person for now. I prolly need less lonely moments to keep me perk up or at least less negative. And it is possibly the reason to why i am feeling hungry right now. Too late to take any food. No supper cos i am on a diet. So... time for bed...

Yup.. Thks Ps for the concern and special way of comforting me. I appreciated it. :)
And.. I simply adored my bestie. The little surprise smses never failed to made my day a delighted one.

Okie doz. Likely be prawning with Jac bf and a fren tmr night. And.. Sat, to celebrate my 2 lovely members of the Musketeers, Yx & Ps bdays. Hmm.... i foresee less negative thoughts and an even happier ME.

BABY, i love U. Thank u for being such a sweetie love. Smooches.

Feeling Upside Down..

its late now. I can't sleep, no.. i don't want to sleep. Even though my body alarmed that its time for bed, i refused.

There are many things to think. Too many thoughts to deal with, suddenly i just want to break down. Break away.... Last night.. i ran to bed, hid my face under the bolster. Maybe that is the sign of escaping from the reality and terrible thoughts. I knew it well enough that i should not hold back and i should not even dig into the awful memories. The fact that life is cruel, it just constantly keep me reminded of my wrongdoing. Thank you for being with me. I need strength and assurance.

Telling or saying something to someone is the easiest act, i made myself useful in this way. I guess im the weirdest person. Emo, pessimistic or whatever it means..

Im exhausted. Maybe i have been mugging to the extreme for assignments and researches. I think i need a break.

Ironic. The soul in me always guide me to the path of silly doings. Today, i felt the threat of sudden death. Im afraid to lose anyone precious to me. Family, Baby, Friends.. everyone in my life. Unvoidable most of the time.

I will cherish this life, next life.. and every bit that keeps me staying alive.

Goodnight.

[L.O.V.E]

Its amazing the way we clicked and fell in love together,

we held hands and got things going on forever.

3 days was the limit to decide our love and fate,

we just knew what was right for us.

Broke the curse of love at first sight,

we made it happened all for once.

Time passes, we shut those eyes,

started sailing on bad days never come by.

Love you Love you, the more i want to.

Love you oh Love, i will keep standing at the point we met.


Wherever, whenever this love is blessed till this day,

we exchanged promises to stay by one another in any time.

You are the best gift that i ever been given,

and the only apple in the princess's eyes.

Our past became the darkest secrets we shared,

and we simply know each other the best.

Rising the flag of love high up in the sky,

god will bless us as he watch us from heaven.

Love you Love you, the more i want to.

Love you oh Love, i will keep standing at the point we met.

Forever i will......

Its foolish to be upset over people who are not worth the anger and even the slightest thought.

FLICKLE-MINDED character will be the last sort that i wanna be in contact with!!

Here are some updates...

Hmmm.... time for updates.... it would be a pretty long entry i supposed. Heh.

Shall start from last Fri. Met up with K, Yx, Ps, Wn, Wc. We headed to Central Sq, a pub named Mongkok for a drinking session. Had a whole lot of fun whereby we played dice and card games. Wc was completely down with luck with most of the time being the loser, thus he ended up drinking more than anyone of us. Followed by Wn who also had quite a bit to drink. Lol. As for Nana, not too bad could have been better. Heh. Left the pub rather late, lingered around the corner and took plenty of photos. Oh yea.. KARIN ONG, if u read this! Bear in mind that you have to pass me the thumbs with all the photos that you owed me since May!!!! Last warning. I'll be sending out my troops and assasins to slaughter you. Loll.

Right... and on Sat. Accompanied Baby and family to his aunt's 60th Bday dinner. Fortunately, the dinner was somewhere around Central Sq (Yes..again).. Ha. Well, baby had to meet Jx to drink at Mongkok on the same night. That made it very convenient for baby. After dinner, baby and i parted ways. I met up with T & Yf for ktv at Shenton. We sang till an hr after midnight then decided to head to Mongkok. Yf didn't joined us yet he offered us a lift. Gladly we could saved on cab fare and also to mention that the ktv session was paid by him. His treat. :) Anyway, it had been like donkey years since four of us (Baby, me, Jx & T) drank at Mongkok together. Back then, the pub was named Networkz, however changed. Well, the get-together had me reminisced the good o' days where the four of us would drink at the pub and head out for supper thereafter. Since the other two broke off, we haven't had the opportunity like we did this time. In fact, we headed for supper after drinking. Nice.

Eh huh... and finally, Sun! Yesterday. Attended my poly mate, Mx's wedding dinner with my other poly mates. Everyone was dressed formally where most girls wore dress and the majority of guys in shirt and pants. :) All grown up. The dinner was held at Sheraton Tower. Food was well cooked but not fantastic. The banquet waitress allocated to our table was slow and often put on an unhappy face. Anyway, Mx looked gorgeous. The atmosphere was beyond words to describe seemed as though the wedding of a fairytale. Often the case that most brides would have their head beautify with flowers, accessories or tiara. Mx had on her head was a tiara, but it was handmade and the size of it was similar to what we would see Queen Elizabeth wears all the time. The tiara was made of crystals sparkling shine. Both the bride and groom beamed and looked stunning for the first march in. Then, the second march in she replaced the tiara with a crystal hat. Wonderful night. Will patiently await K to hand over the photos before i could upload. :) Anyway, photos that i took myself while i waited for baby to come home to put me to sleep. heh.








And Today... no lesson. I spent the whole aftern with baby. We had plenty of DVDs to watch instead we tuned in to MTV the whole time. Surprisingly, my baby didn't complaint. He was cool enough to sit with me side by side to watch the MTV concert together. We had lunch out and then ordered Pizzahut's Monday special for early dinner. Hawaii pizza with cheese lavae, garlic bread and 6 pcs drumlets for 20 odd dollars. Cheap~~~ Here i am, home sweet home while baby headed back to camp. While we were on the way to my place, took a photo of him.. he looked really serious and charming when he drives.




Alright.. and here are some photos of my rabbit. Cute....







Lastly, shall end of with some random photos. :)

My FAVOURITE panda bear.






I took photos of huge postcards. Quite like it.






And that's all folks...

A sense of Achievement

Woo~ SHIOK!!!! Pocketed a distinction grade for another module!! Im certainly over the moon upon finding out. Oh man.. it was the blessing from God. My prayers were heard and my hardship duly rewarded on this very day. Well, in fact i had been anxious to find out the result at the same time was all worried that i might not do well. Anyway, i see rainbow after the rain!! How nice. Sweet and lovely feeling circulating in my heart, its as if i had been honeyed by some ultra sweet words. Informed baby abt my result and received compliments and he promised to give me a treat!! On the other hand, one of my classmate failed the module and requested for my assistance to type an appeal letter for her. I have already done it and sent her a copy, hope that she can pass after appealing. Its quite sad to hear that people fail though its nothing gotta do with me. The empathy in me just simply lets out easily for whatever situations as long as its realted to someone i know. Good or bad, i don't know.

Submitted OB assignment after i touched down at home. Morning class was as usual. Lecturer didn't give me any advice or good comments to improve on my work. Wasted my ink to print the assignment so i could show him in class today. Well, one more down. i have another 2 to go before its time for revision and all the preparation for examinations.

Im in an ultra good mood now. Can't stop laughing while chatting with poly mates on the MSN. Furthermore, i was glad that nothing hazardous happened to my brother. Thank god for both him and the car was alright. So glad. Might head somewhere to party tmr. Heh. No sch anyway, i can have ample rest before heading out.
Wanna get a dress or top as a reward for my result. Hopefully i'll see ms. karin for some shopping!! Heh.

Filling in till baby call........ so happy... what a lovely night... lalalala!!

Baby the early bird left my place for camp in the morning. He updated me with the happenings in camp. Indeed, interesting enough to mentioned that he was taught martial art. Lol. I certainly and seriously can't imagine baby throwing fists.

Anyway, no class for the day. Stayed home to complete the OB assignment. Managed to get it done by evening whereby the rest of the time i basically did none other than watched tv shows. Heh.

Shall proceed to lala in a short while, before that i simply have to keep awake and fill time until baby ring me. In fact, im pretty exhausted. Great mind thinks alike.. baby is on the line...


ciaoz...