Im elated!! My baby sleeps over at my place tonight. While im writing this entry, he is already fast asleep. It has been a pretty long day for him, the 24km route march on top of it to have carried the Sar 21 and this 84mm that weighs roughly 16 kilos. Bloody heavy load to have it on while he walked for many hours. Poor boy. Thus, im not gonna make him stay up with me. Heh. Its great to see him sleep next to me particularly on a weekday. I remembered sometime back i joked with him that i will call up his OC to lodge a complaint for the reason that they had him overworked. Lol. Well, i shall spare his OC for now after all he was the one to offer him an off day tmr.

Morning class tmr. I will head to sch as usual and come home for lunch with baby. *Chuckles. Came home the same time as baby as i waited for him at the bus-stop. Before that, i was with Karin doing the usual activity.. and that is Ktv singing!! Got a little cranky as the night gets darker. From the latest tracks, we ended up singing like the backdated era songs for fun. It was hilarious to sing the r&b tracks with all my crappy style of rapping. It was tough, very fast and long sentences between taking breaths. Well, generally was enjoyable and hysterical.

Since i have gone ahead for ktv, my aim to finish at least one third of the assignment was obviously fulfilled. In fact, i completed a question and half of the second question. And it implies that i would have less to work on, and a shorter time to spend on the assignment.

I ain't gonna start on the assignment now. Will do it after school tmr. Time for bed. Pleased with what i received in thoughts and especially the physical needs being satisfied. Nana has no complaints for the day. Smooches. So loved.

Just received text msg from sweetheart. Mambo on next wed, and i guess its really the time to relish the good o' days of mambo jumbo. lol.

The coming Sun will be my fellow poly mate, Ann's big day. Well, the greatest event on earth for any couples would be their day of marriage where they tie the knot, make promises to stay by one another through rain and shine, and the kiss of a blissful marriage. Sweet..

Im anticipating my big day that wouldn't happen so soon. Its nice to picture that very moment even though i don't know when will it be. That day, i know i will be looking the best out of my entire life. Hahaha.

Hmm...im about to start on the OB assignment. But..im already planning to date my friends out for some K singing. Should i? Brr.... lets see if i can finish at least 1/3 of the assignment. ;)

Great..im waiting for my parcel, its taking too long. Quick quick..i wanna hold on to my baby for as long as i could.

Oh yeah.. buddy Yx, if u read this entry. Come'on..Brave urself to open up to 'her'. Don't regret that very day she found someone and it isn't U. So do whatever u have in mind, Do it like there is no tomorrow. Not being pessimistic. But.. its the only solution to have a chance of becoming a dare devil, dude!! Gogogo`

And for now... back to the assignment. I missed my baby already......... love love love. ;)

Muah baby has left my place to head back to camp. Well..kinda went through high-low tide during this weekend. It was as if baby & i ride on a roller coaster, then finally touched down on the ground safe and sound. As i recalled the unbearable moment, we had to fight till the end to get our points right into each other's head. It was the difference in our perceptions and opinions. Well, thank god, we managed to pull it off well. And here we are, as good as ever. As a matter of fact, it ain't something good to tell about. And absoluetly, no couples on earth would wanna argue or quarrel tiny winy issues that worth zero breath to waste. Its just silly, but its kinda indispensible act in life. Quarrel can be the additional element to spice up two's lives. However, it shouldn't be something darned serious with relates to life or death, and hell no to arguement over money. We've never did.

Anyway, we made it up by spending more time with each other. We kinda signed a pact or something, to signify that we're gonna compromise with one another's bad or even nasty temper when things doesn't work out right. Just bear with that very moment, once its over.. its over for good. We're not the short-tempered sorta people (well, actually im a bit close to that though. Ha!), but we have our short-comings especially when we push the button at the wrong time. Im gonna be the "little girl", and he will be my "Mr. Q".

Back to the home activities..we had to do with watching Dvds since we've a whole lot to catch up with before we buy more. Maybe back then we bought those Dvds at the shop, we didn't had an idea of what movies we were looking for. Then, i realised only when we flipped through the stack, most of it were either horror or thriller. How nice. For someone like Nana, who wasn't interested in these movie genre. Im becoming more brave, so damn proud of myself. Lol. Very soon, i can strip off the title "scaredy cat" & gladly tell my friends that i can watch scary movies with' dem. Woah.

Still waiting for my baby's call. And besides that, i might as well start reading up the case study so i could prepare myself for the assignment. Bad news. Im gonna have merely 3 days to complete it. 1,500 words with the bloody taxing harvard referencing, i bet im gonna have sleepless nights.

A fresh new week will begin in roughly 15 mins time. Weekdays again. Weekends passed quicker than the former, not fair. Can't we have 50-50? Heh.


Alright, im getting a little crappy here. Maybe its the tiredness that is kicking in. Im aiming to sleep before 1. Hopefully. Chatting up with my buddy Yx. sweet dreams to everyone. Love.

Yeah.. i missed Luv & Sweetheart. Girls... see ya real soon. Muackz.

Overjoyed. Baby bought me a gift. *Chuckles. Its something that i eyed on at first sight and its gonna me mine baby.... Hahaha.

Maybe im too excited to receive the gift, can't sleep. Be seeing my baby prolly in the aftern tmr. Before that, would be meeting Sisifu for lunch and chillout for a while. Be heading to Bugis with baby for some shopping. Gonna get myself a pair of heel and hopefully i see a denim skirt that i like.

ohhh man...im left with merely 5 hrs to get my beauty sleep. Morning class makes me sian half. Well, i can't skip classes. So...i shall try to sleep NOW! Otherwise, i would prolly be looking like a dead pan during tmr's class.

Lalalalala... happy happy. I shall keep up with this happy mood. Whatever it takes, i have convinced myself to stay happy. Stress bug come attack me... i ain't afraid. Lol. Im a crackpot..so be it. I like the way it is............. =)

Lately, I have been hearing a lot from friends about their unhappiness relating to love issues. I ain't an ultimate successor in love relationship. Nevertheless, I would like to offer advice to you guys and girls. Don't ever let opportunities slip off your hands. The hardest thing to achieve in life would be the "One & Only Love".

Trust your instincts be true to yourself in the first place before you take a step ahead. Conversely, it is important to know what are the surrounding external factors which can be the barriers to further a relationship. Many a times, people usually see the surface of a problem. I have been through what a normal female would experience in a relationship. From the past incidents, i realised how silly i was to cause an arguement or quarrel to surface. Be it a minor issue or rather more serious ones, the only exit to it would be to put yourself in the other person's shoe, then analyse the situation in your perception. I understand that when an arguement or quarrel is strike, most people would counter attack than to withdraw. Why don't just be calm and cool down even before going into the matter? Its abosultely not referring to cold war. And i strongly disagree with people who would choose to let the matter rest. When its time to solve a problem, do it. Don't sit on it or put it aside thinking that it will be forgotten as time goes by.

In addition, don't ever assume. By making judgement that he/she did wrong would do more harm than good. Forget about the common sense or logic. Well, kinda ambitious to say that and by saying is hassle-free while putting it into practice is indeed challenging. In fact, it takes time to achieve whatever that we want in life. Love takes time to grow too. To allow that to happen, we need be patient and forgiving. A relationship will only be drawn closer under the conditions whereby two people would live in each other's world and share joy, laughters, sadness and tears altogether. There are cases in which both parties have different mistmatched characters and personalities making it tough to work things out, but look around..there are successful cases. Those are the people who make the extra effort. Make changes while comprosing with one another. Its never easy to find someone with identical character.

Simply enjoy the process. Cry or quarrel when it is necessary. At the end, keep in mind that we should discard the unhappy memories and keep those sweet and lovely ones. Many people would bear grudge and the worst thing to do is to bring up the past in the midst of a fight. Stop looking back.. Move on. Quit being a mawkish person wanting to let go but on the other hand keeps on talking about the past issues. No one says love is perfect, its the little cracks in it that makes us stronger.

Despite feeling kinda unwell, i met up with T for ktv last night. Had diarrhoea and vomited a couple of times while i was still at home. Some sort of the symptoms to food poisoning while it wasn't exactly. Besides the fact that we haven't get together for quite a while, i wanted very much to sing. Hence, i went. I sang most of the songs that i had in mind, on the whole happy and contented. Well, other than shopping i guess singing would be the best activity to engage in for pure entertainment and it would be good enough to make me beam. Heh.

There is no lesson for today. And i just had lunch with XF. She works around my residential area, hence it makes it convenient for us to have lunch together for as often as we like. I ate Claypot Pepper Noodle, while XF ate Claypot Yi Mee. Its the first time i eat at a vegetarian store and it turned out to be quite a pleasant surprise as the noodle tasted yummilicious. We have not met for many months excluding the last time i bumped into her at the NTUC Fairprice near my house which was weeks ago. There were so much stuff to talk about and her one hour lunch break wasn't enough. Anyway, we have many opportunities to meet up for lunch again.

I would most likely be meeting CK for lunch after class tmr. Hopefully, he's not cursing and swearing as i have postponed our lunch meetup for many times. My apologies, dude.

I have been feeling lerthagic for many days. Yeah.. and not forgetting the merlion effect, its making me feel terrible on and off. While i slept roughly ten hours last night, im actually feeling kinda drowsy right now. Even ten is inadequate. Sleepy.....Sleepyhead!! I should take an afternoon nap. Kinda planned to upload the photos that i took at the Toy Museum, but i guess im gonna do it after beauty sleep. Sweet dreams... =)

The sudden thoughts of my future prospects came gushing into my mind. In a few months time, i will obtain my degree and better off find a job. And i meant a proper and stable job whereby i get opportunities to advance to higher levels. Im a keen learner and pretty hardworking for as long as im responsible for the work. Just like i have done my part for every group assignments till date.

To be frank, im unsure of what i would become in life down the road say five to ten years time. I can only confirmed that i will eventually be married to darling. As early as it is, i fancy to be a young mother with four to five kids. Well, that is provided with a high family income. (*chuckles)

With my kind of character, it would probably hinder my path to success. Im the type that doesn't voice out on the personal opinions. While on a happy note...if darling can't bear to let me suffer in the working society and within his ability, he might just let me be a full-time mother or taitai maybe.
I had an agreement with Luv to be taitais together, cos it isn't satisfying or enjoyable to be one with all the friends working. At least i know i have one to accompany me (that is if i really become taitai). Ha.

In order to excel in a career, there are many facets to success. Sometimes, i know that by brainstorming the situations that might happen... i could have use the time to think about other matters. It is pointless to read into the future when i have no absolute answer to the questions in the head. So why think?!! This is the strange part about most human, they think about things at most of the time that lead them nowhere. Well, its kind of a norm to me. Pretty difficult to change. The deeper thoughts that i have, the more scaredy cat i am. It sucks. Better still..I never watch horror or any sort of movies since early primary, and since poly i had to sleep with lights switched on. Its already a negative effect before stepping into the real world. To conquer the fear in me i have started watching thrillers and gruesome movies, but not horror movies as yet. Lol.

I need to improve bit by bit, otherwise it will be taxing to cope with major changes at one go. The critical decision requires a quick answer. Which field should i look into? What kind of a job or career would suit me?? What... Why... How.... Where.... Living in this world ain't an easy task for sure.

In a lousy mood. And im seriously gonna volcano erupt.

First, i was not reciprocated for the feelings that i showed towards. It kind of make me wanna get me off my bum to head out for a run. On the other hand, i was tired and very much needed an aftern nap. Both my brain and mind failed to work properly, thus i was in daze for the whole day. I couldn't care less neither could i care much. Attempted to take a nap and i did fell aslp, but for a pathetic 45 mins with sudden wakes from unknown dreams. Fed up. Woke up spent the rest of the time on TV. Unfortunately, whichever channel that i tuned in played shows with bitter story line. I ended up tearing the whole time and got me kinda emotional for a while. Well, its good and bad. Its obviously bad to tear over a tv show, however its a good time for one whois down in mood to cry and release the unhappiness within. Nonetheless, there should be a limit and control for in case one gets too involved or even finds it hard to withdraw.

Next up... i get worked up over some household matters. Its the indifference between people's attitude towards certain matter. I might be a little picky. Darling would oftenly comment that i work in a very systematic manner, thus i get frustrated when things doesn't work out the way i have in mind. True. Besides that, the biggest hurdle would be to accept the laziness in my dad and bro. I would just like to have everyone in the house to keep it clean. Simple as that. Arghhh.... it seemed impossible no matter how much effort i put in to persuade them. Although i would go all out to make them change or even to scold them, its all good for the family. It wouldn't help if im the only one trying to keep things right, while dad and bro do otherwise. It takes two hands to clap!!!

Alright... just needed to let it out. Feeling better.

Be meeting up with K, Yx, Ps and Wn to visit the toy museum in the aftern tmr. And it will be dinner at Mint Cafe. The remaining people will join us then.

(*Yawn).. i think im feeling sleepy. But im hoping to talk to darling before i hit the sack.

Anyway, its gonna be exciting for the following week. Will be doing quite a bit of catch up with friends that i haven seen for sometime. Like Sweetheart, Wl & Sj, Xf and Sisifu. Looking forward......... Heh.

Been out since aftern.. stayed out for almost half a day, exhausted.

Met up with karin to shop for her bday present, and im glad she got something she liked. Its a pair of fred perry sneaker. I personally liked that very much. Heh. Killed a couple of hrs before we headed to meet the guys at clarke quay.

Our party spot for tonight was at 'Geographer', a pub in clarke quay. Other than the guys, i haf bestie to join us too. Fun. I had a limit to the amount of liquor to drink. Whereas, my dear friend WN had too much to drink and ended up vomiting. Lol. Hence, he was sent off to homenest way earlier. Yx and Ps stayed behind to party for a while before we parted ways with bestie and friend.

Im getting heartburn now. And.. its making it kinda uneasy for me to turn in. Will have to stay up till it gets better. I hope i can just knock out at once. Well, too bad.

Gonna be staying home tmr. I'll be meeting up with my poly mates on sunday AGAIN!! We'll be celebrating Karin's bday at Mint Cafe. That very day.. my love will be back in SG!!!! Can't wait to be in his arms. I MISSED my baby lotsssssssss........

Im dreaming that he's by my side now....... sob

About a week that i have not post an entry. The last entry was posted a day before my 23rd birthday.

Well..a bit of update on my bday celebrations. My poly mates celebrated my bday with me on the exact date. It was a whole day thing. Caught up with bestie to get my bday present from him after class, while we chatted a bit. Then, met up with mamasans for lunch buffet steamboat at Coca. Thereafter, had dinner with musketeers and rest of my poly mates whereby we dined in Shin Kushiya Suntec. Received present and an ice-cream cake... nicee... sweet!! Heh. Was a lovely night.

Met up with bestie for a couple of hours on the following day. She treated me to k session and got me gifts from bangkok. Love those tees. During the night, had a heart-warming dinner with my family, darling and my relatives. :)
The best part about my bday this yr was that my brother remembered and sent me a text msg to wish me. Although he didn't personally get me a gift. He told me to get anything using the credit card. So i did and bought myself a bag that i can bring to school, cos all of my "school bags" are spoilt. Heh.

Finally, i had dinner with Luv on Sun. It was her treat. She also bought me necklaces from guangzhou. Heh. Gifts and more gifts...Fun. Doesn't really have to be expensive gifts, its the heart and thought that counts. Loved.

Well..officially 23! Not much of a difference being a year older. It does have some sort of effect on me be it physically or mentally. I see more of dark eye rings. Ha. More responsibilities.. meaning that there will be more pressure and stress. Wow. Its nice to celebrate birthdays, yet thereafter would be a roll of challenges to face as i aged and move into different phase in life.

Anyway, my baby has flew to China for business purpose. He will only be back by Sun. Long wait before i see him again. Sigh. I missed him and im missing more as the clock ticks.

Managed to complete my MCB assignment. I should just turn in for now. Hmm...i have already planned to sleep in class tmr. Lol. EXhausted.

An unhappy note.

It seemed like i had a major downfall in my mood. Not depression, however ain't stable. Bursted out in tears during the phone conversation with baby last night.
At this point in time, i feel it coming.

Hidden the unhappy side of me, while putting up a brave and happy front. Sometimes, the body and mind will begin to let loose when one becomes physically drained.

Whatever that is being observed on me at the present state was the work of the surrounding people and environment. 'Change'..that is the word! Im still not confident enough. Due to the factor, i would easily lose faith in certain things that i do.

I wanna change.................................................................

Home sweet home.

Met up with yx & ps for dinner at NYNY AMK Hub. Then, chilled out for a couple of hrs at coffeeshop before touched down home nest. Heh. Well, did a lot of talking and kinda caused me a sorethroat now.

Decided to sleep early tonight(i know it isn't early now). Before i do so..gotta wait for my baby to ring me and have a short conversation. Every day and night i would anticipate his call, that will be my source of power. It kinda revitalised me every now and then. Heh.

Celebrated baby's bday on Sat!! Was a great day to be with, though baby had to book in at evening. *chuckle. Coming thur be my big day! Be meeting up with musketeers and some other friends. Heee.... It's a pity that baby won't be around on my special day. Im beginning to detest NS! It separates us a large fraction out of 365 days. Darned. I wanna complain......

Hmm...im restless. Feeling drowsy..but i've gotta tahan until baby call. Heh. Time for magazine to kill time. It's gonna be morning class for the whole term. Damn it! Hopefully i would wake up on time and not be late for class again tmr.

Lalala....im in high spirit.

Back for some updates...

Started off the week with an off day. As promised, i made it to the clinic for consultation regarding my spine ache. I did an Xray, indeed the result reflected something went wrong. My lumbar spine isn't straight, in fact was slanted to the right. Well, i'll be the one bringing in sales for the specialist centre. Heh. Im praying hard that i don't need further Xray and stuff, cos that would indicate the complication of my spinal problem. Before i forgot, i have to mention that darling was the one who accompanied me to the clinic on both days. Really sweet. We waited for like long hours, and i meant longgggg..... However, he didn't mind. Until further examine, shall be positive. To be frank, the amount of pain has been incrementing bit by bit. Im sorta like acting brave though. Its pain.....

Met up with Tracy for ktv. Then, had dinner at Fish & Co with bestie tagged along. Ordered the usual item, Seafood platter & side dish. Gotta complaint.. both items weren't cooked out of fresh ingredients. The shrimps, sotong, fish tasted like overnight kind. Bad enough. Not up to mark for sure! So... pple, don't patronise the outlet at Paragon.

Seemed as though im having a break this week, but the true fact is...its the 1st week of a new term. Yet, i merely have 2 days of class. The best part was my course coordinator wasn't efficient and informative. Hence, my classmate & i ended up in school this morning then to realise there wasn't any class for the day. Totally sucks. Im gonna fail her for the evaluation form. Must do.

Double confirmed. I have class tmr morning. She better not play prank again!! My Darling be booking out tmr evening. Yippe. We'll be heading to Tere's workplace for dinner, then... home sweet home. And begin our movie marathon.. DVDs... yoo hoo~ Ha.

Received text msg from Luv. She's dating me to a candlelight dinner for my bday celebration. Heh. I like....

Gotta hit the sack. Sweet sweet dreams...