Confused with emotions that hits really hard.
All these while, gladly to say other than happy, it's still happy...be it an object, people or just the tingling feeling.
At this point in time, im rather stucked. The thought of drifting away from someone that i see no point in entertaining just hang in the air. My mentality is to give in as much as i can. However, as time goes by, the willingness & spirit slowly diminished bit by bit.
I ain't no angel, neither Ms. Nicey. I merely want to be true to whomever that i regard as friend or even more. Recalling the teenage period, anyone who steps on my tail will watch me roar. Back then, with a lousy & bad temper, i would easily fly into a rage with or without reasons. Now, i have grown up to be a cool & calm character. There are times i get temperamental, and that happens during heavy workload season in school.. its likely i will get mood swings. But besides such situation, i can be really good with controlling my temper. Ironically, havin to be well-tempered im easily pushed over these days. While i was a nasty character, i seemed to dominate my world.
Definitely, i wouldn't want to relive a nasty character. I don't ask for any return from anyone for the favours that i did. The least i expect would be the basic respect. I do you good, take it.. leave or stay it's up to one's choice. I want my dignity.
For the many times that i gave myself reasons for things that was done unto me, i repeatedly proved myself wrong. No explanation to all that have happened. I just felt really hurt. I cannot hold on... neither can i let go. It's like flying a kite, as it flies in the sky... gets further and even further but one still holding tightly to the string attached. There are 101 chances.....ultimately, it's all up to individual to decide to continue the path or take a turn halfway through.
Im clingin on...... im losin faith & trust...... i don't have the courage to voice out. "Don't read too much into the matters"..it's simple to just say it out. But with the kinda pessimistic character i have, i would wallow in misery.
Who says life can be simple & smooth sailing....
All these while, gladly to say other than happy, it's still happy...be it an object, people or just the tingling feeling.
At this point in time, im rather stucked. The thought of drifting away from someone that i see no point in entertaining just hang in the air. My mentality is to give in as much as i can. However, as time goes by, the willingness & spirit slowly diminished bit by bit.
I ain't no angel, neither Ms. Nicey. I merely want to be true to whomever that i regard as friend or even more. Recalling the teenage period, anyone who steps on my tail will watch me roar. Back then, with a lousy & bad temper, i would easily fly into a rage with or without reasons. Now, i have grown up to be a cool & calm character. There are times i get temperamental, and that happens during heavy workload season in school.. its likely i will get mood swings. But besides such situation, i can be really good with controlling my temper. Ironically, havin to be well-tempered im easily pushed over these days. While i was a nasty character, i seemed to dominate my world.
Definitely, i wouldn't want to relive a nasty character. I don't ask for any return from anyone for the favours that i did. The least i expect would be the basic respect. I do you good, take it.. leave or stay it's up to one's choice. I want my dignity.
For the many times that i gave myself reasons for things that was done unto me, i repeatedly proved myself wrong. No explanation to all that have happened. I just felt really hurt. I cannot hold on... neither can i let go. It's like flying a kite, as it flies in the sky... gets further and even further but one still holding tightly to the string attached. There are 101 chances.....ultimately, it's all up to individual to decide to continue the path or take a turn halfway through.
Im clingin on...... im losin faith & trust...... i don't have the courage to voice out. "Don't read too much into the matters"..it's simple to just say it out. But with the kinda pessimistic character i have, i would wallow in misery.
Who says life can be simple & smooth sailing....
posted by Nana at
8/14/2007 03:49:00 PM
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