Words can't describe.

I guess this particular week has been the toughest time of my life.

There were many a times i couldn't withstand the grievance. I busted.

All i could do was.. to walk away from the problem. The existence of certain characters made my life somewhat miserable. I couldn't fathom the fact that i have to go through this sorta 'torment' not for the sake of myself, but somehow or rather for other people whom it may concern.

I would question myself all the time. Why am i out on one's feet for things which shouldn't be of my concern. I can simply not bother. Well, i failed.

I would put up the widest smile possible despite being upset deep inside. I'm not putting on a mask, i just don't want to affect others. How nice it is if everyone could think likewise.

CM popped by my office after lunch yesterday and we chatted for a while. Her advices made me brainstormed thereafter. Maybe i should heed to her advices and get my plans rolling out. Anyway, thanks babe.

Caught a movie with Yo, Chris, JY & Aaron after work.

'The Final Destination 4'

Apart from the sound effect which was alright, the storyline was a flop! I didn't fall asleep though i was already sleepy before we hit the cinema.

Anyway, this movie is about premonition. It reminded me of something similar which happened many years back. Although it wasn't related to death, having to know something before it really happen.. the thought of it just freaks one out.

In a while, i will be heading out. It's been like donkey years since i last met my sec sch mates, Jing & Dar. I happened to bump into both of them like weeks ago. Hence, the meet up today. We have got lots to catch up. We will be singing karaoke at Liang court. Thereafter, i will have to join Ame and guys at Fort Canning. I'm considering to head home after karaoke session then i can work on my trade notes. Contemplating...

If i'm gonna come home to continue on my work, that will disappoint CM. She instructed me not to waste my weekends over work. I'm in two minds about this now..

Let me take a power nap. Wake up and decide.

Have a wonderful weekend.

The unknown answer.

I won't ask. I won't speak a word about it.

I don't want to disappoint myself again.

I don't want to dig into it.


I don't look forward to anything.

Just let the days pass.


Can i not talk for the rest of the week. I need peace and silence in my world.

The late night activities.

It was another long night.

Time: 6.13am

I reached home like 5ish. Washed up and lolling on bed right now.

Val reached my place at 10ish while we waited for Jack and Ame to arrive.

Val and I were cheated by this malay couple. We buy their story that goes like that..
They claimed that they left behind their bag in the clinic and the clinic was closed, hence didn't had cash to take a cab home. They approached Val for help and requested for some money otherwise to send them home. Val was obviously not comfortable to send them back, thus i offered them ten bucks. While waiting for Jack and Ame, we popped by the clinic to check if it was really closed. Kinda expected that they lied. I was rather disappointed to realise the fact that the clinic was still operating.

To be frank, i'm kinda racist. This act of behaviour has resulted in further lost of faith in this particular race.

Finally, they arrived. We took just one car and made our way to liang seah street for dessert. Thereafter, we went to yishun safra as we intended to sing karaoke. To our dismay, by the time we reached the time left to sing was merely 2 hours. It isn't worth it to sing for 2 hours while we pay for the package. Hence, we board the car and headed to lim chu kang cemetry to explore. I'm glad nothing happened. We left the place and drove into kranji farm resort. Both Ame and myself were in hunger, so we decided to head somewhere for supper. We ended up at Bukit timah, and all ate the same food - bee hoon goreng. Jack started snapping photos. I joined in the fun. lol.






Supposedly after dinner wannted to head somewhere else, but Jack was tired. We drove him back to my place to pick up his ride and headed to AMK. Found one spacious car park, Val got both of us to hands on and drove the car one after the other. We even did parallel parking. My leg was in jitters when i did the parallel parking. lol.

Shall sleep all i should...

Freaked out!!!!

..yeah..aftermath of a thriller.

Knocked off rather earlier than any other days, Em Yo & I headed to Taka without Chris, who joined us after she was done with work. Supposedly just the four girls, and then we had Jy, one of our temp staff to join us for dinner. By the way, she's my secondary sch mate. Her bf also joined us for dinner. Due to peak hour, we had to sit separate tables. Until we had a bigger table, then we combined and sat altogether.

Dinner was at Pasta Cafe and obviously we all had pasta. Then we ordered 3 different ice-cream to share. Cookie Crumble...i like! Yummmy.

Em was quite turned off when i took out the 'spot the difference' book and had both yo and her to do it together. Well, after all she gave in and got kinda engrossed with it. lol.





We chatted for quite a while before Em's dude called. Both of them already planned to catch the movie 'Orphan'. I had no idea why it ended up all of us watched the same movie. I'm a scaredy cat. I don't watch horror movies and thrillers. I was jittering when i entered the threater.

Like seriously..there are quite a number of movies to watch besides this one. Halfway through the movie, i already felt like i was suffocating. I wished i dozed off, vice versa.. i was wide awake resulted from the many times i got shocked.



This movie is violent!!!!!!!!!

The freakingly freaky creepy look and that pair of evilish eyes.. oh gosh.. it's floating in my mind. Darned. I'm so gonna hate Em for the next few weeks for forcing me to watch the movie. Furthermore, i embarassed myself by screaming out loud a couple of times. Laughs.

When i reached home. I was thankful that bro & mimie were still awake. I washed up and get settled in my room. Had the table lamp turned on. I log on to msn and chatted with Chris. She was probably googling on the disorder 'hypopituitarism'. I remembered i was quite awake, in fact i dozed off shortly. I woke up at maybe 5am and realised that my table lamp and PC were still power on. I turned off the table lamp and fell aslp.

I definitely didn't slp well. Slpt at about 3, and woke up like 10. I should be sleeping more than 8 hours during weekends. I'm gonna take an afternoon nap. Heh.

Discharged!

And Yes! I'm officially discharged! I do not have to go to KKH for further appointments. I was certainly elated to receive the news.

I headed home after the medical appointment. It is the earliest time to reach home over the past weeks.

No one was home upon my return. I changed into my home attire, took a cup of warm water and some biscuits, and parked in front of the tv. I realised that i haven't watched the news off many months. Hence, i decided to tune to the news channel. And i got rather emotional.

The Morakot Typhoon in Taiwan....took many lives. One rescue plane crashed into a cliff in the midst of the rescue. Sometimes i wonder why did God created natural disasters. I couldn't stop crying though none of the casualties were related to me. I felt for their family members. I wish i can contribute some help, perhaps being there physically and providing comfort to the affected villagers.

Bro came home shortly. I dried my tears at the fastest and came back into my room and tuned in to channel 5 while facebooking.

Singapore Idol was hilarious. Following by Criss Angel, the mindfreak. I was stunned over his move having to stand on the roller coaster track with 24 people on the ride then passed through his body. Well, it wasn't exactly passed through his body. The moment that the roller coaster hit the spot, he was already seated on the first seat on the ride. It was amazing. And kinda freaky.

I'm absolutely enjoying every moment getting cosy in my room. Home sweet home indeeed.

Received sms from Jack to inform me that we have a date tomorrow. It's always so impromptu. Can be a kinda surprise at times, NOT all the time.


Sleepy head. Time for bed in half an hour.

Let's do it again.

Ame.Nana.Valen.Jack.

We fully utilised this one day.

Mani, Pedi for Val. Coffee Bean Alfredo for Ame and Nana.

Hopped on the ride.

First stop - Lorong Buang Kok. The one and only Kampong left. Took many pictures. I hope Val will upload the picts soon. We've got interesting and hilarious videos too.

Next up - Jack's Ah gong house @Railway Mall. We drove from Yio Chu Kang to Bukit Timah. That was quite a distance. lol. Stayed there for a while.

Headed for dinner @Old Town.

Moved on to Labrador Park. Did a bit of walking, dropped the idea of entering the greens. We made our way to changi village. We drove around to sight seeing those deserted buildings including changi hospital. Two of them wanted to explore the hospital, whereas the other two (Ame & I) were disagreeable. Hence, we made a U-turn and decided to have supper. Thereafter, we hopped on the car and Jack just drove aimlessly. Then he thought of another place to go.. which is our last stop - Emily Hill. Unfortunately, it was closed. They took a walk in the nature reserve while Ame and I roamed about the 'Hang Out' at Mt Emily. Toilet break. And i was the first to alight. Woots.

Thank god we had a good ride.. the comfy 7series. Otherwise, it's gonna be tough to last a day in the cutesy boxster! lol.

I have in mind places to go to... Lock Road.. and Jack suggested Mandai Lake. Let's do it again!! Gogogo..

Where's the limit?

The clock is ticking away.. it's close to 1am.

I'm absolutely exhausted.

It has been a mad rush.. a crazy week. Since i was informed that grandma was hospitalised on Sun, i merely visited her once. It wasn't due to knocking off very late. The official visiting hours are from 10am to 9pm, and the hospital is located in Simei. I will not be able to make it having to leave the office like 8ish.

I took all my stuff back so that i can read them up this weekend. It's like i'm battling against time. I jolly well learn whatever i should or have to, and start popping questions if i'm in doubt. This is the only way to save me from myself and the sudden attacks.

Frankly speaking, i need a break. I have been mulling over the unforeseen circumstances. It seemed like a rough time to get by. I broke down a couple of times at work, and i'm worried i will freak out one day. Many a times, i accumulate the amount of anger, frustration and unhappiness then let out the steam at one point whereby i know i have to in order to move on.

My apologises to those whom i haven't been promptly responding to be it the missed calls or texts. Trust me, i have been sleeping early. Well, it wasn't planned though. I basically just dozed off when i touched down in homenest. In cases like chatting with my parents, i would also dozed off on their bed for one or two hours before they nudged me and got me back to my room to continue my beauty sleep.

I'm looking forward to my compliance leave.

I haven't been playing MJ. I haven't been singing KTV. I haven't been shopping. I haven't been doing what i used to do.

Cut me some slack, please!!!!!

Packed..

I have been meeting up with folks like everyday after work.

Mon - with Jan. We haven't seen each other for like months. And whenever we meet, it'll be a whole session of bitching. laughs. We will keep ourselves busy talking than snapping photos. After dinner, we parted ways and i proceeded to meet up with my dearest mamasans. I missed my cutesy mamasan so badly. Chilled out at Breko. As usual, our cranky bitching session about everything. I'm glad we met up and updated each other of the latest happenings. I'm anticipating the next session.

Tue - with CK. We had dinner. Got lots to catch up. Supposedly to have a MJ session today, however his friend couldn't make it. Well, i'm still looking forward to our first exciting MJ game. I must win your money, dude!!! laughs.

Wed - with Eric. It's like our first official dinner together. I gotta knew him when i repeated my Java module back in Poly. It was pretty embarassed to join my juniors, nevertheless, he helped me during that tough period. I hated Java. And i'm thankful that i made it with a passed. Anyway, we headed to Paulaner for a drink or two before home sweet home. Well, we are gonna meet up for dinner soon cos i lost a bet to him. Darned.

Thur - with PS. The other 3 musks couldn't make it, hence just the both of us had dinner together. I was glad to meet him on a one-to-one basis, hence i gotta know some darkest secrets. lol.

Fri - company event. location wise cannot be disclosed. cos i'm ashamed to even spell out the name of the hotel. Well, it was an unforgettable night. I wished i had left earlier. Seriously. But it's not too bad either to see the human nature. The ugly side i meant. I swear i wouldnt wanna attend any of the events going forward.

Yesterday - belated bday lunch with Ling & Jun. And we caught a movie 'Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince'. I dozed off halfway through and woke up in a shock. I was pretty shaken by the ugly faces. lol. Did a bot of shopping and we parted ways. Then, i headed to Ame's place. On my way over, while on the bus i had this French guy who offered to hold my paper bag for me. I was holding this big paper bag while reading my book and listening to Mp3 player. I rejected his offer and continued to read my book. He tapped my shoulder and striked a conversation with me. Well, you see.. i was heading to Geylang and it wasnt quite a nice place to be at. Everyone in the bus were like looking and whispering to one another when the both of us talked. I felt kinda weird though. Nevertheless, i bet everyone knows that French guys are mostly very friendly. We even alighted at the same stop. Thank god he didnt mistook me as one of those.. Haha. R&R at Ame's place until Jack and Val came over. We hopped on the cars and headed to Tanjong Rhu for dinner. From there, we begin our adventure. Daniel took his bike and he wasn't familiar with the north and west side. Hence, we had to keep a lookout for him while he followed the cars. We mad eour way to Aroozoo Ave to buy blood worms first. Then drove a long way to Lim Chu Kang for prawning. It was a long journey.. seriously. Damn ulu place. We ended the session ard 3ish. I immediately knocked out when i got home.

And this morning when i woke up, mom informed me that grandma is hospitaised. i wanted to go. showered and changed then realised that my parents and bro left without me. they prolly thot i went back to bed. well, i will visit grandma after work tmr. Hopefully grandma is doing fine. I'm like home alone. My dad, bro and mimie went to AMK hub without me. :( Shouldnt have took a nap then i wouldnt be missed out. lol.

About half an hour more.. i'll be sitting infront of the TV watching my favourite show. Heh. I hope i will be discipline enough to start skipping while catching the show. Save this time to chat up with Andy and LZ. I'm finally back in action on MSN messenger.