Sun-less-day

Dad was hospitalised since last wed. Had an operation on thur nite. It's all good now. However, he has to be observed for another one week. I ain't worried no more like i was upon knowing that dad was rushed to the hospital.

My parents are the greatest gift of all. I can't afford to lose them at any point in life.

My boyfriend finally appeared after a long time. He visited my dad at the hospital. We didn't really go into much details of what we were supposed to talk about. I hope there wouldn't be any more dissapointment.

IT happened. I hope it doesn't affect the friendship. I cannot reciprocate the feelings. What i can provide is the friendship and companionship.

I hope we can still be good friends.

Brought the notes back so that i can start preparing for the training materials. I can barely start cos i'm feeling lerthagic most of the time..even now. gosh.. when can i get started.

Stress about everything.. i need to take a short break.

Overdosed.

24 hours a day is not sufficient.

I can't seem to sleep a decent number of hours.

Work is piling up. To be frank, there are many times when i felt suffocated. I can't breathe, and i want to reach out to the pack of destress pills. I know i shouldn't rely on it cos its likely that i depend on it as and when i feel out of control.

I hate to be sandwiched. I hate to be stucked between two people. And i have no solutions to solve this situation. I cannot work things out.

I was bursting this afternoon. Then i counted to ten, told myself i can't cry. Swallowed my tears and drugged myself with work work work..

I would like to apology to my dear friends whom i have neglected for the past weeks.

Please pardon me. I will catch up with you guys soon.

My eye lids feeling heavy. I'm gonna knock out real soon.

Been taking bus to work. I usually take train. And i'm enjoying the bus rides.

So i'm gonna continue to take bus instead of train. :)

Enough said. Time for bed..


Sweet dreams guys and girls. Love. Hugs.

Random

Well..this is gonna be a random entry. I don't even know what to name for the title.

Since i came back from BKK, i have been really held up at work. Needless to say.. with a couple of visits to the hospitals.

Back on Sun. On leave on Mon. And MC for Tue and Wed. So it's like kinda short week at work.

Once i'm back.. i had to put on the armour and get all so ready for the battles ahead. I am stressed and tensed up at work. I don't know if psychologically i'm being controlled. I would get the pain whenever i'm worked up.

I'm currently relying on the medications on a daily basis to curb the pain. It has been many days since i started on the course of medication. I really hope i can get better.

Well..as for the diagnosis. Doc claimed that my pelvis, gall bladder, liver, intestines and stomach were at their best form. He suspected kidney problem, like prolly stone. I will need to do some scan before the final confirmation. Meanwhile, i'm still positive. I guess by remaining positive, it will assist in a speedy recovery.

Yesterday - Kevin came to pick me up after work. We headed to Vivo for dinner + movie. Right.. i'm really backdated. Fast & furious 4.. not as fantastic. In fact, it was quite a flop. Thereafter, we drove to east coast Breeze Bar to chill. Ame, Valen, Daniel & Jackson joined us shortly after we reached. We hanged out till like 3ish. I was freaking exhausted then. Dozed off on the car. Nevertheless, i had a wonderful night. So much joy and laughters to share.

I didn't sleep well. Prolly slept like 5 hours. I had plans for tonight already. But i'm gonna like push it back slightly later so i could get ample rest before i head out. Cos i foresee another late night. Heh.

Tracy dear is prolly waiting for my reply.. gotta get back to work.. exercise my fingers.. lol..

Have a great week ahead guys.. :)

I'm back from Bangkok.

Before i begin on the details of my bkk trip, i would like to assure those who knew where i went last night. I'm doing fine though still feeling exhausted.

Guys and girls.. don't worry too much. I'm fine.

I'm on leave today, therefore i have all the time to rest before i get back to office tomorrow.

I bet everyone know about the situation in Pattaya. We watched the news on tv in the hotel almost everyday. There wasn't so much of a chaotic situation in bangkok as compared to pattaya.

I enjoyed myself a lot despite the fact that my body wasn't doing too good.

Just when eveything was going so smooth.. shit things happened. We were supposed to be home on saturday night. We missed the flight. Had to rush to every counter to check if there were flights back on the following day.

When we heard that the budget airlines were fully booked.. it wasn't a piece of good news. Hence, we checked out Thai & SQ. Val needed to be back in SG at the earliest time possible. She took the 8am flight, while Ame, Daniel & I took the SQ flight in the evening.

We battled with time.. had our tickets and hotel booked. By the time we reached our hotel, it was like 4ish.

Throughout the trip, i didn't had sufficient rest all nights. I was always the one to wake up at the earliest time like SG time 6ish, 7ish. Having that i slept like 3ish or even later. Totally nuts.

I bought a lot of stuff. My luggage is still in Yo's car. While Val had my stuff sent over to my place last night, even before i was home. Prolly have to go over to Yo's place to collect it tonight.

Seriously.. The ending part sucks. I swear this would be the first and the last time i would miss a flight.

Feeling exhausted.. i need to get more rest.

I will be heading back to TTSH on wed afternoon to collect my result. Then i will keep you guys and girls updated. Hopefully it is all good. :)