Hurt

I woke up with aches and sores.


It still feels like yesterday.


I'm still feeling terrible.



I need to protect myself from now on....


All by myself...

Back to Zero.

My pride was dented.


Of all people, you had to be the one to destroy it.

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When can i lift my head up again?

Love is life..

Love is a toxic. When it turns bad, it can kill lives. It can easily trigger the time bomb that each and everyone of us have in our instinct. Some people will lose their minds and do nasty things unintentionally. While the others would be lost of words, and choose to wallow in anguish and agony. When many words are left unspoken, the distance between the involved parties will eventually be wider. And if the problem cannot be solved, the one and only escape would be to end it off.


Conversely, love is a tonic. It is the hope for those who need to heal their wound left behind from the past relationships. It is healthy to the body, mind and soul. When there is love between two person, it keeps them together. Warmth, care, and concern will be provided by each other to grow the relationship.


Love is complicated. Love and life symmetrically matched. Life is full of ups and downs. It is similar to a roller coaster ride. Upon deciding to take on the ride, we open ourselves to the challenges and risks involved. Having to make the decision to fall in love, we need to bear the consequences be it good or bad. That is life.



Love is never easy to maintain. It takes a lot of hard work and effort to keep the flame burning. The arguements, disagreements, and fights are indispensable. Those are the elements that provide the space for learning and understanding of one other better.


Love may end up to be like the sunset brilliant yet fading away, or it can be like the four seasons with changes at each stage however last till eternity.


Right from the beginning, we should know which direction to head towards...


It's very individual and personal.

Every love stories are different. Love can be meaningful enough to last a lifetime or meaningless to carry on. Live it or leave it, you decide. (dearest dudu)

碎。。。。

装坚强。 试着去面对。。

一直相信。。非常正面的去承担。。。


可是。。那脆弱的心始终还是脆弱。


为何总是要我勇敢。。。。。



我的心。。。。。真的很痛。

Silent night.

Went out last night, and reached home rather late. Despite the fact that i was exhausted, it took me about an hour or two to fall asleep.

And the funny thing was..i held on to my handphone throughout my sleep. lol. Maybe subconsciously i was hoping that Baby might gimme a surprise call or text. Well, he can't come home this weekend. boo~

I'm feeling like i swallowed a bottle of honey last night. The last phone call from baby had me smiling till now. Those words that came out from his mouth and from the bottom of his heart tickled my heart. It was really sweet of him. :) And i'm developing fertile imagination about the future.

I ain't going no where this weekend. Shall be a good daughter and stay home to accompany my parents.

Beaming with radiance. Love.

(Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy)

Packed.

I met up with bestie yesterday. As usual, we had sakae sushi. Bestie introduced me to this kimchi soup. At first, i find it odd for a japanese restaurant to serve korean cuisine, and didn't trust that it will taste good. In fact, it was a savoury soup and very appetizing. Anyway, I am so glad to meet up with him. Bestie never fails to make me smile. :)

Popped over to sweetie's homenest thereafter. She had something going on that distracted her mood. I am glad i was there with her. The camper game took us a long time to settle down. It was fun though. Most importantly, a happy ending. :)


As for today, i went along with the parents to cutesy aunt's place. The main objective was to meet the japanese girl that my aunt has been babysitting. She is one hell cutie who melted my heart with that pretty face and sweetest smile. I was overwhelmed by her friendliness, and the fact that she likes me as told by my aunt. Having to be the first time we meet, she clinged onto me, leaned her head against my arm, and had me seated next to her for dinner. Its a pity that we didn't have more time to spend together. I would love to visit her more often provided i have the time. She is certainly gonna grow up to be a fine gorgeous babe.

-----------Her name is Natasha Nagata Reira. 6 yrs old.-------------



Missing her already.


Bedtime.


Let us meet in lala..my Baby & this sweetie pie Reira.

Random pictures

My girlies. The S4(Stoners 4)...from the Stoner's Paradise. lol.










Candid shots...





Finally, my lady & her fav. panda tee...

Chanting..

'I am Baby's perfect girlfriend!'.. 'I am Baby's perfect girlfriend!'.. 'I am Baby's perfect girlfriend!'.. 'I am Baby's perfect girlfriend!'.. 'I am Baby's perfect girlfriend!'.. and it goes on & on...


Im positive!!!!!! :)


Oh yeah...I am crazy over KungFu Panda 'Po'!! It is so damn adorable!!!!!!! Smooches.













AWESOME!!!! I Love Panda!! And i am gonna head to Mac for lunch in order to get the kungfu panda toy. *Smile


Woot..see that. I am Happy, Baby!!


Time for Bed. Need to wake up early. Sweetest dream.

Happy 59th!

Happy Bday to my Dearest Mommy!!! :)


Mimie and I didn't like the idea of getting the whole cake, and we decided to be creative. We replaced the cake with slices of cake from Breadtalk, cookies, and Hershey kisses chocolate, and have them nicely placed on a big plate. Here is a picture of the artwork. One of a kind.



And presenting to you, my cutesy tiny mommy.



**the picture quality is poor, and the colour is kinda faint. don't mind pls. ;)


Anyway, mommy was pretty much surprised. I am glad she liked what we prepared for her.


It is about 2am, i ain't sleeping soon. I have to admit that i have became a nocturnal animal, an OWL. lol.


I will be accompanying mommy to the hospital for the stitch removal tomorrow morning. And prolly a picnic outing with the family in the late afternoon.


Looking forward..... :)


P.S: Miss You, Baby.

Up and Down.. and Up...

Once or more, it doesn't really matter. I fell and was picked up.

No doubts. No scrubs. Just keep believing.


Anyway, it was father's day(past 12). Baby and i brought Pa and Mommy to Tian Wai Tian for dinner. Although we waited rather long for the food to be served, it was a delightful meal at an affordable bill.

Happy Father's Day, Papa! Your little princess love you always.


Kick aside those unhappy thoughts.

I had a great weekend. I Love You, Baby. <3

Marvellous Friday Night

I got home since a while ago, washed up and here i am lying on bed typing this entry.

Well, its another late night.

We sticked to the plan for dinner & movie. There were the S3s and the last one had plans with her love. I had so much to eat tonight and it makes me feel like a glutton.

Before sweetheart & i watched 'sex and the city', together with Luv we chilled out at Dome cafe. Nothing feels great than to be with the greatest friends of all to share secrets, jokes and gossips. And its each meet up that allowed us to know each other even better with the catching up and updates.

Anyway, the movie was great apart from the disturbing laughters coming from people beside and at the back of us. You know, i would love to be dressed in those gorgeous outfit if its kinda like accepted in s'pore.

I haven't heard from baby in a day. Then i wonder what has he been up to. Nevertheless, i will be meeting him tomorrow. I can barely wait to see him.


Oh yeah..let me just whine a little. I am somewhat annoyed by someone who can't stop digging into my personal life. Like who the hell she is to know about my everything. Why should she even be asking me questions like my mom do. Besides, my mom doesn't even ask that much. I certainly hope she could quit being sucha nosey parker.


Time for bed. Sweet dreams, Nana. Happier and that is the way it should be. :)

5.30AM

This is totally insane. Sweetie and i met up for k session, and chilled at Mac thereafter till like 4ish. I guess both jobless equals to 'too free' and therefore we can afford to stay out till morning. We got a bit cranky then started to think of names for our future kids. Super lame.

I am lying on bed while typing this entry. Dead beat. I hope that i wouldn't wake up any time earlier than noon.

Sorry baby that i didn't keep to my promise to be home early. Heh.

I enjoyed the talk cock session. Full of laughters. Well, i am feeling fresh. Thank goodness. If i hadn't gone out i would probably be in depression and think about the sad past.

Anyway, bedtime. Morning to everyone (those that will be heading to work like soon). Lol.

I miss you so much Baby.

Bliss

No one else in this world understands me better than you do.

Thank you for the assurance.

I know that i am evermore not confident in myself yet you never failed to build up the confidence in me. It's the effort and the extra miles you have taken to assist me in all ways you could that made me realised i am so loved and protected.

Your encouragement and guidance brings me through until forever.

Even if the world disagrees with my decision, i will not quit and same goes to you. The offering at your expense will be duly rewarded with the ultimate faithfulness and everlasting love guaranteed by me.

I definitely made the right and best choice ever in my life to be with you.

I will be strong. I will be confident. And i will be the most beautiful soul in front of you and my loved ones.

You have touched me in many ways. My gratitude and appreciation goes all out to you.


Tomorrow onwards..i will be a better ME! A happier Nana.. and your dearie dear dear dear dear dear.


I LOVE YOU, BABY!!

Gimme the ray of light...

I had updated a new user picture hoping that it reflects the happier side of myself.

To be frank, i am feeling confused and lost. Its like suddenly i can't catch hold of what i want, and it puts me in this jittery situation not knowing how and why did this has to happen.

Most of my friends think that i am a calm and peaceful soul, and it kinda compelled me to be fixed in such an image and character. I do have my fair bit of complication in life somehow not to make it clear as it doesn't really help the situation at any point in time.

Well, my resolution of all time would be to bring happiness to everyone and anyone taking part of my life. Due to that, i have to be on my toes and keep up the lively spirit. Then sometimes i wonder why do i have to work so hard in this area when i already lost control of my own life.

It's critical. I am absolutely one of a kind, the pessimistic sort of person.

I am facing a psychological crisis. It's nuts.

Crazy people do crazy things. Unhappy people stays unhappy. Pessimistic people continue to sink into their own world.

The thought of running away keeps on haunting me. I MUST get out of this crisis.

Bless me. Amen.

Never underestimate..

I guess i need to undergo some sort of anger management training. Lately i have been rather short-tempered, and i flared up over the minor issues. I wonder if i had like early menopause or something.


Last night..i really needed to talk. Even if its just anyone, i needed a listening ear. It was a sudden attack like i became emo, then i felt like i was stoning while supposedly watching a tv drama.


Odd. I cannot predict my mood. I guess i have underestimated myself.

Serenity

It ain't no sunny.

Ended an episode. More to deal with.

For the time being, i would like to enjoy the privilege of the peace of mind.

I guess its almost appropriate time to free myself from all the anxiety that keeps on haunting me.

Please pardon me for MIA.

And anyhow, have a speedy recovery - Andy's dad.

Loosen up my dearest sweetheart, i love you.

Stay blissful my Luv.

Enjoy the return to work, tracy dear.



"One must have the strong will to battle stress."



Be strong muah fragile wrist.