Time flies... its Monday once again!!! Monday Blueeee......

Weekend was good. Partied with bestie & other friends at clarke quay on fri nite, was pretty last min. Reached the pub rather late, thus, ended late. Overall, i had a great night with lotsa fun.

Thereafter, i intended to like rest more on Sat & Sun. However, on & off there were a couple of tasks to helm. I still ended up slpin at ard 5am for both days.

The new term's first class starts on Wed, so i've like two more days to get ample rest. By hook or by crook, i will ensure that i knock out before midnite for these two days.

Be headin out in a bit to meet up with karin for dinner. Im craving for ktv.....

RED ALERT..Since the week started, i slpt in the mornin ard 5 everyday, and woke up not later than noon. I believed it had heavily affected my health, physical appearance(dark circles) & mentally (low concentration). Sure that its gonna backfire. However, im contemplatin to turn in early, or chiong all the way until mornin AGAIN. After all, the chap will close tmr & i can slp as long hrs as i want to. OH man..Im outta control. It sucks big time during exam period!!!!!!!!!

Mistreated. Anger. Exhaustion. Super dark eye cirles. Irregular meals. Worries. Stress. One & only thing that im dying to do.. SLEEP!!!

Baby called me this aftern!!!! Smiles. And..i will get to talk to him again in a bit, tmr nite!!!

I barely start revisin on IM, kinda left with only 2 days before exam. Stressed!!
Thanks to my brother, the delay for revision was partially caused by him. Initially, he requested to have me along where we headed to holland for an onsite job. My task was to sit in the car, and thats it! As he was afraid of gettin summon, i had to play a kind soul to watch out for those 'summon aunties"! Lol. He promised that it wouldn't take too much time, hence, i agreed to tag along.

However.....

He had to meet up with a client for signing of contract, i haven't got a choice and had to tag along AGAIN. The worst part was..i was dressed in a t-shirt, a pair of short & birkies. And..the meeting spot was in town area. We settled down at Paulaner @Millenia, and ordered a glass of beer each. Its pathetic!! With the kinda dresscode(my brother wore a company polo t-shirt & a pair of jeans), we were like aliens to the people around. Well, my greatest fear was to bump into friends, & bingo.. i saw a friend, but luckily she diden recognised me. Very nice. Phew...

I SWEAR.. never to help my brother a second time. Wasted my time, i could have wrote notes for at least 2 chapters for my revision. And wouldn't have to take late dinner that caused a short pain in the stomach. I can't eat at late hours, especially when i was already starving. Grrr....

Well well.. too much of complaint. Shall get started with revision!! Wish me luck! Mooch.

Had nightmare throughout the night. I could barely get out of bed, thus, missed out on the additional revision class this mornin.

The nightmare was terrifying, pretty draggy one. However, im rather glad that i remembered every detail in it. I was once told that as long as we remember the dreams, then it wouldn't happen in the reality. I would seriously rather not have any at all.

Been brainstorming since the week started. What will become of me after graduation? Some parts of me may hinder the path of my career, and it ain't easy to change. Those parts of me made me whole, it can be good or bad. At the point of confusion, it will be an advantage. However, most of the time it can be a drawback. Its definitely a disadvantage to myself, prolly may affect my closed ones. I guess its never a win win situation, every human being have their limits. Its either to live with it, or push ourselves into dungeon and be self-centered. Eventually becomes an ultimate winner.

The greatest challenge of being a human is to fight against the darkness of reality. People lose morale when they stand no chance of fighting back, and that will be the time where they have to...resign to fate, suicidal. How sad. We have seen tragic deaths from the cause of cruelty of human and the diminishing kindess.

We are many of a kind. Shouldn't we accept anyone as the same level, rich or poor doesn't play an important role. To be kind and do good deeds, eventually heaven will duly reward us. Kindness comes out of the heart, it must be unpretentious. Be considerate to everyone. Help the poor, provide shelters for those who encounter hard knocks. We are no saint, and we ain't super heros/heroines. Nevertheless, we can play our part to keep this universe a lovely place to live in. Wouldn't it be the best to feel heartwarming when we are at any part of the world? Love. Care & share.

I feel farking FAT now!!!!!!!!

I wanna be thinner!! I wanna have a tone body!!! I wan a healthy me!!!! Im FAT & UNHEALTHY!!!! NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im gonna make sure i lose weight before Sep. By exercising & not through crash diet. Say goodbye to my all time favourite food!

Its almost 6am!! Goodness gracious.. I AM STILL AWAKE!!!!

Been workin on the last assignment for the term. And seriously, i have no idea why can't i hit the word limit. I have written close to 2k words after crackin my mind, but i still need another 1/2k words. To write an essay of 2.5k words seemed to be an easy task, or even a peanut case to some smart alec. For the past few terms, often the case that i will exceed the word limit. And usually, i will panick as a matter of fact that marks will be deducted for exceeding the word limit. This time round, its like the other way round. Its an impoosible task, a lot of ideas but cannot produce in quantity.

To be frank, i ain't tired. I wonder to hit the sack wake up in the aftern to finish up the essay OR continue until i doze off. I will choose the latter as for now... but i might just fall aslp unknowingly. Ha.

Anyway, my dearest friends.. my apologies for neglecting u pple. Either preparing for exam, or i would be greatly workin my brains for more ideas to write the essay. Last paper on fri, while its the due date for the essay in 17 hrs time.

Darling should be preparing to head to tekong for a 3D2N field camp. He is not picking up my call, either washing up or busy with work already. Wish i could just talk to him for a little while, otherwise it will be wed nite that i could speak to him again. Feelin down.. my motivation towards the exam/sch comes from darling.. i want some love for now..........

Home sweet home from supper with darling. Had prata at Jln Kayu. What a sinful treat, hence, i decided to not turn in yet. However, darling had already gone into lala land. It has been a hectic week back in camp, pretty tough on him. Slps over at my place tonite, and head over to his place tmr.

F&I paper was all good, ain't much of difference btwn the tips given by lecturer and the paper itself. I supposed should have done quite well, as i thot i answered most of the true/false & mcq Qs correctly. Btw, this portion has 40% weightage of the paper.

To be honest, im feelin drained out super slpy now. Its just not right to slp with a filled stomach, besides, i have always had indigestion problem. Should avoid any implications towards it. Right, it will be a busy day tmr. I will have to rush out an assignment, the last one for this term. I will need to submit this assignment on mon, cum the exam to be done on fri.. but i had planned for the week after. Gotta meet up with sweetheart & others for ramen.

Fwah..cannot help my eyes are shutting... exhausted... let me just turn in now. Hopefully i don't gain any weight.

I will be takin F&I exam tmr aftern. However...im feelin all cool and calm about it and cun explain this abnormal sign. Jan & I spent the whole aftern at civic mac supposedly to study real hard, while ended up chit-chatting for half the time. Both of us were damn relaxed.

I planned to study till as late as possible, guess it applies for Jan. I ain't ambitious, aiming for a P1 grade. Would be better if its a Credit.

Arghh... time to keep it rollin... All the best to myself & Jan. Gogogo~~

Transformer! I felt like one today! Met up with Luv @Amk Hub a couple of hrs ago, had reached home quite a while. She commented that i looked different and not recognisable. I did not wear makeup, and my eye brows were diminishing. Lol. She hasn't seen me w/o makeup for the longest time, hence, the big reaction over it. I already felt pretty affected though, and to top it off, bumped into friends. It was supposed to be a neighbourhood shopping, however, somehow it was meant to be..to let my frens see the real 'Me'. I bet it must have left an impression of me, either i looked like a malay or worst, terrifying dark eye rings. Ha. Right, my dad is an indonesian. Therefore, i looked like one, but semi-dark. In fact, i have pretty fair skin. It neither good or bad in particular. But i will prefer to be of a pure race, chinese. Sometimes, i would question myself, to wear makeup or not??! Will i be frightenin the pple that i meet up with? I wished i had no dark eye rings. That is the only reason that i wear makeup whenever im out.*depressed

Be meetin up with Jan for revision tmr. Better turn in early. Awaiting darling's call. I miss darling!!!!! Sweet dreams.

Been a while since i last posted an entry. Have yet to be fully recovered. I woke up voiceless every mornin, and it only got better like this few days.

F&I paper will be on fri, im unsure if i could pass the exam. I haven got much time left.. studied till 3am last nite. Let me continue with my revision now...

Better luck this time!!! Shine on me...plss..

Presenting the girls: Yuting aka Ting & Shuling aka Dudu aka Sweetheart


Both sweethearts, Nana Dudu @ NYDC..


Foursome: Nana, Sonia Luv, Ting and Dudu. The sweetest smiles ever.

Following, informal picts...


We were supposed to make funny faces, somehow someone didn't comply to it. Spot her? That's right! Ting!! And she could even claimed that her expression was funny. Nevermind about this, we agreed to make a second attempt.


Obviously, 'someone' remained 'pretty face'. Look at this pict and the previous, compare and see if there was any change. Seriously, i don't see any change. And again, she claimed that she did made a funny face. Faint. The rest of us protested. Lol.

Next up.. "bad deed"


The angle was kinda not right, thus, Ting was missing out of the pict. Erh..can still see half her face la. Laughs.

However, dudu and i looked rather cute in the pict. so i had it cropped. And ta dah~


The pict looked more like a closed up one. Who would know that there are another 2 person beside the 2 of us. Wahaha.. Im a 'Meanie"!!


Another funny face shoot, but....Ha.. i shall not mention who didn't make a funny face. Its noticeable.


Taken by Luv with her hp camera. Quite clear. Very natural. I liked!! But i need to do something to my arm, damn fat!!


Just for Laughs..Lol!! What a funny pict!!!


Finally, the last pict goes to.. Luv and Nana. Ain't we sweet?!

My study break had formally started yest. Ain't a good news. Study break is equivalent to hell break, where i have to burn midnight oil for the exam preparation. I can hardly stay focus in daylight, hence, i usually revise in the hours of darkness cum silence.

Alas, i ain't in the mood to start on the revision. Besides this, i have an assignment due on the 23rd. Haven got much time left, i better get started before its too late.


Well, met up with Dudu, Luv and Ting for dinner. Supposedly, it was a date for two, dudu and nana. However, we have another 2 to join us.. foursome?! Lol. It was a fantastic dinner, not bcos of the food. It was the chemistry. I couldn't even recall the last time the four of us met up altogether, can imagine how many donkey years?! Was a great catch up for the 3 of them, as they haven like met up with one another for the longest time. Was a great catch up, as Ting had just returned to sg from aussie. As usual, the loudest laughters heard amongst the other tablesin the cafe. Thats just Us, PL-lites identical quality. Tsk. Absolutely, we can be crowned the champion of the champions 'Camera whore'. While waited for desserts, we took loads of photo. Shall share the photos after the writings.

Thereafter, Luv and i headed to DB. While the other two headed home. Our plan was to chill but not till the wee hours. However, we stayed till the closing hour. And.. headed to elsewhere for more drinks with dd. She brought us to a pub at boat quay. Wouldn't say was a good stay, the drinks were costly. Furthermore, it was earsplitting cos the srs were blasted with music. Its more like a club than a pub. We had to shout at the top of our voices, still we couldn't hear each other clearly. I kinda gave up and started using sign language. Laughs. No idea if they catch what im trying to tell to them. Stayed for a while then headed for supper. An experience is more than enough, no way that i will revisit the pub.

The condition of my throat has worsened after last nite. The beer and shouts must have caused it. Im downing nim jiom, and relying on vapo vicks for sorethroat relieve. Cough hasn't got any better either. Can be breathless at times. Its disgusting, i sound like a MAN now!!!! If i don't recover in the next few days, i will dash to the clinic for consultation. Singing is my ultimate hobby, cannot live without it. I need my voice.. 911!!!

Its my duty to clarify and clear the air. Some of you guys have checked on me with regards to the previous entry.

Well, the matter was related to studies. Apparently, I was found guilty of having plagiarised for the last assignment that i have submitted. The fact that my classmate took my copy of assignment, copied the answers with 90% unchanged.. hence, both of us were said to have convicted 'Plagiarism'. The consequences of the conviction would be getting straight '0' for the assignment, that will lead to repeat of module. Then, its extra course fee and prolly not graduate on time.

To be frank, i was very much affected and in total anguish. Was worried over the issue, on the other hand, thought that it will be hard to face my classmate the following day, which is today. I don't want to sentence her to death, however, i was angry with her doing. I trusted her with my assignment, believed that she would make good use of it. But it turned out to be such an outcome. Actually, i have to be partially held responsible. Knowing that she haven't been paying much attention during class, most likely she wouldn't know the answers to the assignment questions. I could have guided her instead of handing her my copy of assignment.

Nevertheless, the issue has been somewhat settled. As it was the first attempt, marks were deducted that served as a first and last warning. THANK GOD. I managed to get a distinction after the deduction of marks. Its not over yet, the UniSA lecturer ,who is the moderator has the final say. Be mercy plss...

There will not be a repeat of the same mistake. That means.. i will not hand my assignment to anyone from this day onwards. Not to be selfish, but to protect myself from further cases like this one. I will still lend a helping hand though.

Im all good for now. Already planning my exam study plan. Aiming for high mark for the exam, just in case UniSA drop the grade for my assignment.

Upon knowing, i was overwhelmed and did not helm the matter well enough. Should learn to be calm about anything that happens as long as it is not related to life and death.

Encouragements from darling and my dear friends had made me realised im in a good spot. Nothing beats the care and concern you get from your loved ones. The sweetness. I felt like i have swallowed a bottle of honey.. and even my saliva tasted sweet. Smiles.

Very late now. Cough has worsened. I hope i will not wake up dumb tmr. Shall hit the sack. Better luck next time.

Guys, thanks for the concern. Somehow, it happened too sudden. I was over-reacted. Maybe the matter wouldnt be the worst. Well.. whatever~ IM ALL COOL.

Its a past tense. Nothing can be done to reverse. The matter of fact, all or nothing. Faced it. I don't blame anyone. Its just bad luck.

BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME....

I don't want this to happened!!!!! I DON"T WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot stop thinkin, I can't stop my tears.... Why must it be today??!! When i said that i want to start my life afresh, things just happened....

Im convicted for something that i did no wrong.

My parents are out of town and have yet to come home..im feelin rather lonely and depressed within me.

It wasnt due to any unhappy accounts. Depressed for the reason that i felt helpless towards some issues that would happen in life. During ageing process, we will be bound to losing some things or people, and that we havent got a choice. How sad. I have been watchin a drama lately, and deduced from it that i shouldnt pin too much hope in any prospect. The practical way would be strive hard and keep runnin ahead, never look back. Im not as pessimistic as i was a couple of years back, but there is a little bit left flowing in the blood. Maybe its just in me. And its just this little mistake that we made, and it can never be erased from memories. This mistake has kept me strong. Ironically, should have brought me down.

Yesterday, there was an arguement btwn darling and I. It made me realised how imperative i was to him. Somehow, its the hardest task to get the men to speak his heart with their pride and high self-esteem. And so, many words were often left unspoken. However, surprisingly, i heard words that melted my heart. It touched me deeply. Both of us felt that we fell short of one another's expectations. We were always on our toes puttin in effort to maintain the relationship, to delight each other's life to content. Most importantly, we wanted the best for one another. That is the special effect when two are in love. Its more than just courtship, but have developed into kinship. Thank you God to have brought such a wonderful and perfect man into my life. Im contented.

I always wanted unselfishlove and concern. Its the saying that we do what to people and they would do the same to us. Prolly fifty-fifty. We should just be true to ourselves and the people around us, and don't expect the same return. At times, it can be a defect return. Im leavin behind the miserable thoughts and memories, and live a new life from today. :) As i know that i have loved ones by my side.

Home Alone

It has been like some time that my parents have not travelled. They will be departing for Genting tmr mornin. 5D4N. Pretty long stay, well, its about time that they should take a break.. my parents deserved this trip though its just our neighbouring country. They have worked all their lives to bring us(bro & i)up and provide a conducive environment to live in, and that was the reason behind for them not having any opportunity to travel overseas.

Horrified. Somewhat i'll be home alone for a day tmr. Darling will only book out on sat nite. And obviously, bro will not be home on a fri nite! I hope i have somewhere to head to, its scaring the shit out of me. I can never take loneliness. How sad.

Well, coincidently, darling's parents and brothers will be flying to china on sat nite. That means.. he will be home alone too! Poor us. Our family abandoning us and runaway out of sg. Lol. However, we will have 2 homes all to ourselves. Golly.

It was a long and taxing day. Jan & I went shopping after class. From Taka to Wisma to Far East Plaza to Paragon to Heeren and finally, John Little. We practically walked the entire orchard area. Lol. Speaking of this, my feets are like complaining, aching badly. Bought WL's pressie, was lookin out for a pressie that i owed SJ. Sadly, i hardly found any suitable ones. And..im like meetin both of them on Sat. Im runnin out of time. I need to get it before Sat!!!! Grr..

cough. I have dry throat, hence, dry cough. I feel it coming...allied of flu, cough, fever lining up to take chance to attack this weak health of mine. Rather late. I should turn in. But, before i do so, i need to check on my parents. Gotta make sure they have packed their luggage. Im gonna miss them. *teary eyes. Have a safe journey to and fro. Enjoy to the fullest Mummy Papa. Love.

Lerthagic

Body ached. Sore throat. A bit of running nose. Barely moved around the house, my ass was glued to every spot that i sat. Parent's room - bed. Living area - sofa. My room - bed.

My PC has been positioned at the side of my bed, for the convenience of havin to lay back as and when im tired. Especially, the period of time rushin datelines for assignments.

Supposedly to meet up with two of my girlfriends, WL & SJ. However, i wasn't fit enough to head out. Had it postponed till another day, to be confirmed. There is no class tmr. Have a date with ex-colleague, XF. I missed her so much. Im sure there will be loads of catching up to do.

Endure. I wana listen to my darling's voice before i hit the sack. It feels strange to not hear his voice before sleep, after all, he slpt over for the past few nites. I already adapted to slpin with him side by side. But, high chance of dozing off. Exhausted. No idea why. Nana, pep up!!!

'Blessing In Disguise'

Had a minor car accident this aftern. Bro's car suffered a dent caused uneven lid. Wasn't serious, however, it took quite some time to close the chapter. Thank goodness. Well, it must have been the bird. Yesterday, while driving along the expressway.. a bird flew towards and collided with our car. Wasn't too sure if the bird was fine, as we couldn't stopped in the midst of the expressway. That would be rather ridiculous. I was worried the bird though. Might be a sign of a mishap. Its done and over. Apologetic towards bro, after all i borrowed his car. lol. He claimed that its more of a 'blessing in disguise'.. cos he can get a new bumper and etc. I know nothing about the car kit.

On the happier note, i have bought a LCD tv/monitor. Am encountering a problem with connection from tv to pc. 'Input signal out of range'. If 'you' read this, aware of the solution to fix the problem.. do let me know. Ha. Thks.

When midnight arrives, it will be bestie's bday. "Happy 23rd Bday, Ame!!"

Sian. Im gonna attend class tmr. The thought that i will be seeing the lecturer makes me wanna 'womit'!! Loll!!! He has a poor pronounciation of words.. say.. vomit = 'womit', government = garment.. and not only that, he said things like 'apple grapevine'... wahaha.. What a shame that a university lecturer has such poor foundation of english. Besides this, his teaching was basically reading the slides. Im sure i can do a better job. Ah. Whatever, i have gotta attend his class. Cannot skip class, a promise to darling.

Might head out to meet bestie slightly later. Sleepy head.

Darling slept over at my place this 2 days. He will be headin back to camp in a while. If im not headin anywhere, i hope he could slp over one more night and head to camp tmr mornin. Hehe.