Its so shocking.....how fragile a life can be.......taiwanese actress Xu Wei Lun just passed away yest......

when i was reading the article a few days back, i thought she would be able to make it. Just like the many cases of famous actor or actresses who met with accident but still recovered thereafter. Unfortunately, she diden make it. I don't know much about her, but from the articles that i have read online......she must have been a really nice person, surrounded with so many friends who stationed at the hospital...stayed by her side....

although there wasnt a miracle....but somehow moving ahead....
all her loved ones will know that she have proceeded to heaven first, while she will still watch over them...acting as the angel in their life....

i teared while reading the articles.......
im so afraid that any of my loved ones will just disappear in my life just like that...........
life is so precious......

seeing someone u love leaving before u.....the pain cant be describe......

Let us all wish her well......

woo...im dancing in my room.....

so very glad that i've got my ada assignment done...once and for all...
so that i can start on a decent revision for the ada exam that falls on thurs...

i've exactly a day and a half to revise....
i better do a good job for the paper so i'll be worriless....
im not gonna be greedy to aim for a HD......but prolly or D or Credit maybe..

i've had a fair share of stress-ness....

really feel like throwin myself into the mood of holiday-ing........but thats jus one-sided...
i ain't gonna let myself down...nor my loveliest parents who granted my wish for takin up this degree program..

well.....i've realised how true life is.....
its not even abt workin or studyin anymore....cos it doesnt make a diff on where u r and what u do...its abt the reality, meetin all sorts of pple out there, where the majorities are like the shitty ones.....self-centered.....i felt like im a recycled item...when im needed i'll be recycled for use, then throw back into the bin when im useless at one point....and then the cycle goes on......
for what i know its all gonna be the fact that things will stay this way till a year later.

thank god i've got dear friends who encourage me and give me the ultimate support to keep me alive and kicking up till now..
most of all.....my dearest darling who will stay by my side even if the world is gonna fall apart.

im tellin myself to stay positive.....
so come on....just 2 papers to go...rest and relax for 3 weeks before the next term starts...

its midnite......but i intend to do some studying before i hit the sack...
so engrossed in studies.....so unlike me.....so unbelievable....

my dear boy lying beside me.....in deep sleep....
my deepest apology for neglecting him due to tight datelines for assignment...
pray that his wound will recover soon.......
his pain is part of me...........pain........

Im a nut nut nut nut nut nut nutcase!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel so like a balloon.....

first i vomited wad i ate...then next, i will eat normally but more than wad i eat usually...my stomach throwin tantrum sia...

one moment i lose weight n then the next...i gained back to the original weight..something is really wrong...

bad news n more bad news...pple ard me aren't doing so good. money is no longer the most impt thing...health is the top priority! i wan the good not the bad!!!

coming thurs be my ada paper, still have yet to start on the revision. be meetin jan to do the assignment tmr..meanwhile im gonna start doing part of the analysis. Im gettin all tensed up with the assignment and exam preparation.

went shopping with mummy n godbro last evenin...bought a skirt and tops..
i have quite abit of clothes that i have not wear even once.......
got lotsa packing to do. waiting for darling to be free, so that he could drive me out to get cabinet etc for my room..im going to have major revamp....hee...

time to start workin on my assignment........
good day to everyone....

Wooo....woke up at 11plus...
its been like donkey yrs that i getta slp till this hr...if only darling diden called to give me a "surprise"...loll...
i almost had an attack...luckily it was a false alarm..

came home ard 3ish in the mornin...though i woke up late but i only managed to slp like 6-7 hrs...tolly insufficient!!
went ktv-ing with dear K last nite...just the 2 of us...i very much enjoy singing cos i haven done that for quite sometime!!
we sang for nearly 5 hrs....its more than enough...

supposed to meet up with jan today, however...mummy asked for a date in the evenin...be meetin up together with godbro to shop for CNY clothes..might as well get it done once n for all....

meanwhile, im gonna start attempting the assignment questions before meetin up with jan on mon for the discussion. i hope im able to do it, cos everyone's fate falls in my hand!! if im an impossible, thats equals to dooms day!! loll...

my first paper will be on next thurs...accounting...
following thurs be marketing, then i'll be carefree!!!! woo hoo~ the thought of it just makes me so excited. cos i can do whatsoever i want when the exam is over!! n i can jolly well start on the spring cleaning....my room is tolly in a mess! every part of my room contain project materials.. textbook + references + notes + printouts...and the laptop box is still lying around in my room....

this yr...my family will be the host for CNY...which means everyone is coming over...so must be double hardworkin in cleanin up the house!! brr.....
im sensitive to dust....im so prepared to get a hell lotta torment from sniffin in all the dust!! whatever it is...im so excited!!!!!

darling only be bookin out tmr mornin...
nana will patiently wait for darling to come home...

have a nice wkend everyone!! *smiles

slpt real early last nite....
i woke up this mornin, felt like i was in concussion for a long time..
my body was aching....my head felt so heavy thati cld hardly get myself up.

however....thankfully, im done with the marketing report and presentation.
thats why i could slp at 11PM.....n woke up at 10AM this mornin!!
amazingly slpt for 11hrs!! but its not enough...i know i can do better than that.
i talk my darling every nite, no matter how late he calls i would just wait....but i diden getta talk to him last nite. so can imagine how tired i was...

be havin aftern class later........
there's still time to sit and relax....
tinkin abt where to go tonite cos its only tonite that i can have fun...
sat onwards will be another battle to conquer...

kinda upset......after all that i've said, it diden get into "his" head.
he still insist to drop out of sch bcos of "her"...
its going to cause a commotion amongst the relatives.
please....just wake up ur mind!!!!

got really fed up with some people who try to find trouble...
saying things like "what goes around comes around"......
question urself before even popping those words out of ur mouth.
i will not allow anyone to hurt my friends...

anyhow...that "someone" have tone down abit....
maybe she knows im not keen to talk....
i should just make it stay this way....
im turned off whenever there's close contact...

shall get myself prepared for sch....
where shld i go tonight???!!!!! ha...

Cheers!!! my accounting assignment submission date has been postponed to next thurs, but the bad news is.....its the same date that i sit for accounting exam....great...arghh...

but whatever it is...i dont have to panic, can tk my time to do it now...
and as for the marketing....
see i stay up till like this hour...i've finally completed the body...
still left with executive summary conclusion.....
im really tired....cant tk this anymore....
im going to hit the sack...n completed the report by tmr.

feelin kinda peckish....
no...i shouldnt eat...shall go slp now...h

its almost half passed one..
im only half done with what im supposed to do for the report.

not that i dont wana be effective n efficient..
im very much lack of slp which leads to fall in number of brain cells.

im kinda thankful with the help im getting now but im crossing my fingers that i dont get play out...

i think i need to stop here for now...my brain is mulfunctioning..
i cant tink properly...
all i want to do is to hit the damn sack!!

anyway, i've just got a new lappie....but for god's sake its givin me probs on the recovery issue. i'll prolly have to drop by the shop to get it settled asap.

i wana get all these assignments done once n for all...

to sweetheart dudu...dont worry im doing real good...
but just pray hard that i wont be insane by the time we meet up.

come on....just this week n im carefree!!!

GO Nana!!! U can do it!!!

Complacent? the ans is NO!!

i burnt midnite oil till 4am this mornin...im still doing my stuff now...
i need to rush to sch soon...

im not even half done...
i don't get any decent help...
n i HAVE to be very calm....

i don't wana be complaining all the time but i can't help it...
there's people who don't even know what exactly is happenin now.
how can this be happenin??

"im already so cool...."
this strikes me hard...
im very cool about everything too....
just see if i survive or die.....

Im starting to get so pissed with someone.....
initially i tot it was all out of concern, but somehow i doubt so.

I don't wanna be mean or even nasty!
but some people just have to push me to the corner....
my tolerance level is up to my neck now, anytime it will reach my head and just blow off the top!!!! that will be the time I lose my cool...but i really wish that the day will not come!!

so what i do for now....play hide and seek..."siam" here "siam" there...

my path is so damn rocky.............
these people must be so called the "xiao ren" in the chinese saying....
i must make 2007 a fruitful year!!!

just ended the phone conversation with darling...
i just loved tokin to my baby, cos he knows me in & out, he's like my shadow..lol..

anyhow..im feelin much more relieved than the passed few days.
i've been battling the war all by myself, bearing such heavy responsibility...
somehow come to senses...
what's in a person will always be there, hard to change..though i still hope for the better..
to conclude, Jan & i will be armoured to battle each of our warfield until its over.
the good thing is, less topics to cover for the report plus the submission date have been postponed..i can let loose for today...golly....

i feel so anti-social at the moment...missed out a lot on my social activities..
once the report submitted, presentation over....i'll have a big celebration before i start on my revision for the exams...

been kinda low spirit for the passed few days, but i kinda picked myself up.
cos this is life...eventually life still goes on no matter how good or bad it is.
its not like the end of the world.
im just disappointed with the people that im working with now.
just shows how incompetent...how "true" they are....thank god that i've still got someone like Jan battling this war with me.

i always tell myself that i shouldnt be mean at all times, but the fact that some people just deserve a beating in order to wake them up.
im glad that my tutor bombarded after all the nonsense that he gets.
how amazing that these people get to where they are today without even showing their common sense or basic knowledge.
very true that money can't buy knowledge...
so if they think they can bluff their way through this degree course, they jolly well just sit and wait for the worst.
i ain't nanny to spoon feed them....u get what u deserve...
otherwise just get the hell out of here. *pissed...

i shall enter the lala land slightly earlier tonight...
and wake up fresh and gear for the battle ahead....lol...

darling friends....i'll be back in action real soon....*smiles...
i need a break man.....my energy be used up in no time...recharge!!

missing everyone of U.....esp. Darling baby.....
i'll be seeing U tmr.....WALA!!!!

i just went through a hell lot of pain...

suffered a burnt with the iron days ago....
blame no one but my clumsiness....
forever that im careless with things around me be it hazardous or non-hazardous items, its like everything is harmless to me...dumbo...

papa applied medication on my wound.....
seiously, i felt like bursting into tears...
it really hurts....

here's a print of my wound...*gross
i'll really be cautious in future....

Finally back...

for those who are wonderin where have i disappeared to..
i've been workin real hard for my studies.
the past week..almost everyday i had full day lesson, i feel so bonded to sch man...its like my 2nd home..loll..

just took accounting test this mornin...
hopefully i can pass with flying colours cos i diden touch much on theory, and i had bit of problem answering the MCQs.
besides...i studied for only an hr after gettin home from Jody Girl's buffet celebration.

Attended darling's POP on thurs..
my boy is a guardsman!! so proud of him that he made it through the tough times in the guards conversion course.
looked so smart with the khaki burret and uniform...


Celebrated Jody Girl's full month yest. gor n jie invited many friends and relatives over for buffet, it was seriously crowded with pple..
n there were plenty of kids runnin all about.
Nana was happy cos i loved kids!! If only i had one...
i had lotsa fun with the kids...handled abt 5-6 kids at a go...
pretty taxing but i loved it!!!

the week was all good though stressed up with sch work...
but Nana is going strong...n gettin stronger...so proud of myself...smile..
Nana & darling both at our best form for 2007!!
go guys and ladies....
have fun and work hard for whatever you wana achieve....
i wana get all distinctions for my modules!!!!
i'll work hard...hee....

i missed all my darling friends.....
thks for all the encouragement.....

Photos of darling..Jody Girl & the kids i played with!!
i loved the 4 kids in the 5th pict...
(left to right: Megane, Jolene, Joshua and Shaun)

chattin with S...its been sucha a long time that i catch up with her.
its like my sch is jus next to her workplace, but i hardly have the time to even pop by to say hi...how sad...

supposed to have tuition class dis evenin, last min called off cos my student fell sick. it was so last min thing...
met up with sisifu...he offered to keep my companied for the train ride, but ended up i took share the same bus with him...havin that he alighted first..seemed like i was the one who accompanied him...loll..
anyhow, i appreciated his "sweetness" minus away all the suanings...

full day accounting lessons drove me nuts..
i was acting like a clown during the later part of the class..
i was super tired...cos i slpt at 4ish n woke up at 8....
n then....the tutor did so much talkin...its like hypnotising me sia...
i cld hardly concentrate....
my worst nightmare...accounting test next wk....cheezes..
im gonna DIE fast!!

im defintely gonna slp early...
otherwise i wun be able to concentrate during tmr's accounting class again...

still waiting for call......

[Time: 2.45am]

very deprived of sleep now...i really do...

last question to go...den i can knock out n join all of u guys in lala land.

my eye lids gettin heavier as i carry on doing the journal entries...
hell torturing man...
wonderin if Jan is still doing the T accounts...loll...
i expect SS n her be late for mornin class tmr....
n den i'll be the sole survivor of the team...not fun....roar...

my life is all abt sch, homework, tuition...blah blah...
no life man.....
Nana is gonna be a nerd wannabe...loll..

on msn chat with bestie now...
looks like she's half dead as me...haha..

ok last question to go....
im left with less than 8 hrs of sleep...bad...

oh yeah....i've got a new member to my bag collection...
contemplating to get the expensive messenger bag, cos its really a hassle to hold my books while i carry a big bag....horrible sight to anyone.

i wana sleep....

im super stressed up today...

its like my life went downhill...when i picked myself up..
im going down again.....but its on a separate issue.
the first have been resolved....
but the pain remains physically..come to think abt it im such a silly.
whats done cannot be undone..so just do with it..

im done with my last min studies....
will have my marketing test tmr aftern...i really hope i can do well..
in fact i aimed to get distinctions for all modules if possible..
n maybe thats why im so stressed up when i feel so lost.

met up with both besties yest...
did a little catch up with wl before that...

be meetin up with bestie guy for dinner after classes tmr..
i hope i won't be lookin stressed all over my face when i sees him.

im in a serious form of slp deprivation. its like i haven been slpin well for mths.
everyday i'll hear the same comments...
"hey, how come ur eye bag so swollen?"....or...
"how come ur dark eye rings like darken?".........
obviously im not havin enough slp....sigh...
i'll have a good rest during the wkends....

Thank u all who have cared for me....
im sorry to make u guys worried, but im really fine now.
promised i won't do silly things again....
sweetheart, i missed U...
can't wait to meet soon...pls tk gd care of urself while u tk care of ur beerie!
till then we meet, u better look healthy...n no weight loss!!
otherwise i'll feed u with a humongous spoon!!! loll...

chattin with my godbro now...
so angry to hear about what's happenin in his life!!
she better not make my boy upset.....
if not.......
i'll be even more sad....

i better go slp....
nite everyone....

feelin all good now...

i promised i wld be up to those silly acts..never again...
we were both at the peak fallin back to the ground...
we shld just stick to the ground for good...

its sunshine now...
smiling.....im elated after opening up..

lookin forward to meet Isaac for tuition tmr...
i hope he have done his homework.

met up with tracy for singing in the aftern..
had quite a fair bit of power singing to let it all out...

things will be back to normal...
thk u my fren my sisifu for all the listenin & advices...
i appreciated it very much.

mornin class for tmr...then be meetin wl for a short while before meetin up with bestie. i hope i can meet up with guy bestie too..
missed his call jus a while ago...
haven told him much abt what happened..
i bet he wld kill me for what i did..

time to rest my little brain...
nite everyone...

i was very close to losing myself just now....
im kinda out of control...
i need a break.....
its like a thousand pounds that im carryin on my back...diden had anyone around...
i just needed someone to tell me jokes to make me laugh...
even irobot doesn't wana tell me jokes.....