Emotions..

The pathway was a little congested... i tripped and fell. Then i stood up once again.

Im determined to kick the bad habit, really... Most of the time, i made myself suffered physical pain which could have been avoided. I should get better each week.

Sometimes, i want to voice out. I don't like to bottle up the sorrows and troubles, it makes me feel lonesome. And yet i would hold back either due to the image that i have already had on people (somewhat happy-go-lucky) or that im afraid to face further damages.

I realised the importance to believe in myself. Its tough to care less about what others might think of you in any ways though, i still have to get over it.

Tears will never stop flowing until the optimism is found in the soul. I will put in 101% of effort to succeed.

Tomorrow onwards will be the start of the pursuing the ultimate happiness and joy.

I already have the best in this world. Family, Baby, and my dearest darling friends. What more can i ask for...

Heading for an interview tomorrow afternoon. I have another interview to attend the following day. Wish me luck!

Goodnight.

Puppy's day out.

Ame, Valen, Daniel, Ginna, Faniel and I had dinner at East Coast last night. It was really nice of Valen to pick me up at my place. Anyhow, i made my first visit to the East Coast Food Centre, but i ate just a bit.

In fact, the main motive was to bring Giko & Spiky out for a walk along the park. Thereafter dinner, we took a walk from the food centre to a chill out bar which was side by side with the water skiing compound. We chilled out at the bar.. chatted about dogs etc. It was indeed exhausting to run with both pups. Valen and I perspired so much.

Both Giko and Spiky were generally well-behaved. Im sure Giko had lots of fun. :)

Baby would be back in Sg in a few hours time. I look forward to an exciting weekend. Its about time to take a shower.. and get myself heading to cck home.

Random post

It's my elder brother's bday today. Mom woke up early to prepare a sumptuous lunch as a form of celebrating his bday. I loved mommy's homecooked food as it taste the best. Mi and I had our lunch, while mom packed food and left for afternoon work shift. We couldn't wait any longer for my brother to come home for lunch. Well, it's pretty weird to have the food prepared, while the family eat separately. Anyway, he has just reached home. Pa should be joining him for lunch.

Will make my way to cwp nokia to collect my handphone in a while. I hope it doesnt breakdown very soon.

Im temporarily using my mom's handphone. Left the charger at my baby's place when i stayed over during the weekend. The battery died on me, hence im currently uncontactable. Im kinda afraid that i would miss the important calls.

I better head for a shower now.. and get going before its late...

Fitting into the right size.

I am halfway through the battle. Still intact, safe and sound.

Its indeed credible for one stays cheery and positive.

One need not take it to heart for what others may be reflecting on him/her, though its annoying at times.

Peace out.

I know what is right and wrong. I can differentiate good and bad. I can make precise and decent decisions on my own.

Whatever that was unsettled will be squared. The critical factor.. TIME! Gimme time to unsolve the misery and confusion. People who know me wholly should understand this. Don't compel me into doing something that i repeatedly disagreed.

All around.. Im coping well. Thanks luv, sweetheart.. and the most important person..Baby Darling!!!!

Good to go... lala... sweet dreams.

Time heals the wounded.

Im picking myself up. In order to unfold the inner desire, i have to keep working.

I have utmost faith in myself that i can pull through this stage and regain the confidence.

Ps.. if you do read this entry, i would like you to know how much i appreciated the continuous concern and advices you have provided me with. Everyday will be a better day for me.. im certainly more positive towards life.

And... Baby, i feel like im the most fortunate girl in this world to have you and all the support. This is not an announcement to make known to the world. I just want you to know that you are an important person in my life, and is worth to be mentioned in my blog. I know you will read this entry. I see you less often than the days before, but i know that you would never forsake me. Who cares about what the others think? Im never gonna live in the shadow, and i will brace up for the future.. for you, myself and all my loved ones.

'Nana, you can do it!" :)

Apologise.

I would like to sincerely apologise to my loved ones and friends upfront for my negligence and somewhat unconcern disposition.

This is a unforeseen situation. My mind is merely and fully occupied with worries and problems faced, hence i tend to be more absent-minded toward any other matters. Please forgive me and bear with it for a while.

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Attended Tere's enlistment ceremony at Guards camp. Upon leaving, i almost burst into tears. I pray that my little brother would be in good hands.

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Im overwhelmed with the high responses from companies which shortlisted me for interviews. I should be working soon.

Spare me the agony.

I will require a little more time than what i have asked for in the past to salvage the current situation.

Im just like wearing a set of sloppy attire that should be thrown away immediately. However, I choose to put it on as i relish on the somewhat good-and-bad memories living in it. And i promise the next time i appear in front of anyone, i would be prepared and dressed in the smart casual attire signifying that it is a brand new me.

Please don't force me into doing what i would least prefer.

Specially for the only you.

Baby, Im sorry. Please don't be worried. Neither do i want to make you upset nor to affect your mood and the drive to work hard.

I promise to stay positive. I will recover from the agony that im going through at this point in time.

I will be happy..

Misery in the head.

After i knocked my head against the wall by accident, my brain can't really function well. I barely remember the things i did. The accident left me with a bump at the back of my head. I had severe headache since... tremendous pain that caused me to wake up in the middle of the night. The pain persisted until i took two panadol extra pills about an hour ago.

Im feeling slightly better for now. Shall sleep before i get splitting headache again. Will be consulting doctor tomorrow.

Achy all over..

Went for an interview for a job with an investment bank this afternoon. I was accompanied by M who waited patiently at the lobby, while i was at the highest level fighting a battle. Lol.

Well, i guess it was all good. And i looked forward to the second round interview. Thereafter, we made our way to Chinatown then to Dhoby Gaut, and finally ended our shopping spree at Bishan. I had to wear heels for the interview, and it was absolutely a pain in the ass to walk around with those heels. Im feeling achy all over especially my feet and calves. And somehow my nerves and joints are like giving ways too. Darned.

Attended cousin's wedding dinner yesterday. The newly wed couple looked fabulous. Congrats to Cus KK and his gorgeous bribe Cus-in-law. The Lee/Lim's family welcome the new member to the big family. It feels great to witness the marriage of my clan. The highlight was i met Uncle Raju at the dinner after not seeing him for almost two decades. I missed him and the delicious homecooked lunch that he would share with me back then. Thank god i found him and i will make the effort to often keep in touch with him. I will never forget Uncle Raju, the first Indian man that i got to know who treated me like his own child. There is nothing more to ask but for good health to befall on him.

Looking forward to a date with SL tmr afternoon. Time for bed.

P.S. BABY I Love You. Muacks.