Ever reach the bottleneck where u deprived sleep so badly yet u can't shut those eyes for some reasons?

Well...thats what im going through at this point in time. I would greatly appreciate some help from kind souls, so that i could like get some sleep for a little while. My life is all about assignments and more assignments at the current state. Every time when it comes to the dateline, i'll be like so dehydrated.

Im only half way through the assignment. Although i still have a day to work on it. However, with little help, Jan & I could only rely on each other to conquer the battle barely with insufficient ideas, facts and recommendations. Seriously, i detest the word "recommendation". If i do have the intelligence in coming up with ideas that no one else in this universe could come out with, i won't be sitting here infront of my lappie brainstorming. knock knock...who is living in this brain of mine? a dodo or a professor to be born into the world?

ah...i have no idea what the hell am i telling. i just wanna take five from the confused mind. complicated as it is....
i just wish that i diden have to go through all these shit. I hope for a clear mind. Sleepy head. Coffee nor Tea helps. Im better off with pinching myself awake. damn.

alright man........give myself another 2 hrs to work on it. I believe i can find complete my part. Hopefully Jan can do so too in limited time. Cracking our brains with sacrificial spirit, all bcos we wanna "kill kile".....

yea im expecting all that coming..

Nana changed her blog skin AGAIN! I got pretty sick of the previous skin. Somehow realised that i would prefer a black skin than any other other colours. I do like other sort of colours, however, i won't change not unless its really appealing.

Ended a phone conversation with darling about a quarter hour ago. Wasn't really in the mood of chatting, its all gotta be the bad flu. Spoke for half an hour. Popped a flu medicine in between. Don't feel the pill taking effect, but anyhow, will hit the sack. Have got to wake up like 8am, that is like less than 8 hrs away. Be heading to the sinseh to get my spinal problem fixed. Thereafter, meeting group members for assignment discussion. I would truly hope and pray hard that there will be some production, never mind about the hours that we spent. But..just the end result that matters.

Feeling like a nerd every single day. Period.
A series of menopause + PMS syndromes banging in their ways. Lets just wait and see how long it takes for Nana's volcano to erupt. Bear with it!

Hit the sack for now....

Since i have got to hang around until i hear from darling, might as well just highlight the weekend happenings.

Well..its not exactly any exciting activities or stuffs to discuss. Darling came home only on Sun mornin. These two days were fabulous. There ain't any day out, we stayed home throughout and watched DVDs. Either War film or comedy. Shouldnt even describe as a comedy cos it was somehow pretty lame show. And we were the lamers to even bother to keep on with it till finished. Loll.

U know what...moving towards the 5th year. It somehow still seemed like honeymoon period for the both of us. Im dwelling into this love. So deeply that i have grown roots in his heart. I would love to just slack at home with darling, no doubt it could sometimes be bored. His companion is indispensable. Its as though we hooked pinkies in the previous life to love each other till this life. Its weird. But we bonded so closely. I guessed even arguments or quarrels will never take chance in bringing us apart. That is L.O.V.E.

I went to sch as usual. The bonus was..I had darling to accompany me to sch. And then he headed to the ICA to get his passport. He is back in camp. Hopefully be able to get together on Thurs. Waiting his call still.......Im wondering did he doze off or something?!

I wana slp soon. So that i could wake up early for a jog tmr.
Start my exercise progamme & pop those pills for good.

Anyhow, its my bestie's bday! Wishing him a HAPPY "" BDAY! Can't disclosed his age! May U find the dream gal sweetie pie. Lucky.

Let me ring up my beau. Looks like im either forgotten...
ah....phone ringing...its darling...

bye for now....

Home alone in cck.

Received sms notice from darling that he gets confined tonight and will only book out tmr mornin. i wouldnt wana stay home tonight w/o having darling by my side.
prolly hook up a couple a frens to head for a ksession.

Supposedly to meet up with sonia last nite. but.......
ended up with karin dear. We had early supper at Cine's Hongkong style cafe.
Before that, was with shuling dear. Had a treat from her for dinner.
Bought a top, a tee & a pair of peek-a-boo heel. ha..
Well..come to think about it. Its been like a yr or so that i do get the chance to really shopped with her. I must say its a rare opportunity due to the fact that she was on medical leave. The day was enjoyable. Updated each other on our latest happenings and so. Thereafter, she headed for a movie with her friends.

Karin & i shared a cab home.
Though there were only the 2 of us, we needed to head to 3 locations.
When she told the cab driver that, i guessed he was kinda freaked out.I saw him turned his head to look behind. We had to like clarify, otherwise he might think that his eyes were playing tricks on him. loll...
First location was my place, as i needed to get my lappie and stuff. Well i necessarily have to work on my assignment even when i slp over in cck.
The best part is....i got everything except the adapter. At this point in time...my lappie is workin on a 39% battery life. It will prolly last me for another half an hour. and then....im gonna be left with nothin to work on. Damn it.

Lets see if i can find any activities for tonight.
Otherwise, i shall hit the sack as early as i can.
What a boring day. Grrr....

This is absolutely INSANITY!!!
Its exactly 515AM in the mornin. I M STILL AWAKE!!!

Although im havin afternoon class, could slp till a later time. But..mind you..i SLPT at 430AM and woke up at 11AM!! Ya right, i know you guys will say i actually getta slp for 6 1/2 hrs. But the point is..slping at the wee hours is not fun. Besides that, it tolly set apart from the usual time that those obedient kiddish hit the sack. Its Different. People getting up to get ready to head to office, while you were just in time to lay down on the comfy bed to catch some slp. Weird isn't it?!

My loved ones: Mummy Papa & Darling, if they were to find out that i slpt at this hour, then it shall be a BIG gift of BIG TIME RANTING plus complimentary of extra one week NAGGING.

Well, im done with FA assignment just one part that im stucked with. Jan and I were like chatting over MSN. discussin abt the way of writing and stuff. then we came to realise that its already 5AM! And guess what..my FA Lecturer actually wakes up this time everyday. That means we could like ring him up to ask him questions. But that wouldnt be nice. Perhaps, he's actively preparing breakfast for his precious kids and wife. Ah..whatever..Jan has already hit the sack, i should do the same.

My darling should have just woke up gettin all ready for the activities today. Missed him badly....

Its gonna be a Night Maranthon!!

Supposedly to finish two parts of my assignment which are of essay writing, however, i only just completed the powerpoint slides. Had to touch up abit cos according to lecturer i sort of missed out some important points. Damn.

In fact, the cause of insufficient time was due to the thought of wanting to loosen up. Class actually finished earlier by half an hour. Hence, joined Tracy for k-session thereafter. Grrr.....perhaps i shouldn't have make that decision out of folly. Whatever it is, i'll still have to complete the work & submit on time.

I hit the sack like 4.30am & woke up 11ish this mornin.
Looks like im gonna have lesser hours of sleep plus more dark eye rings. Alright..im so panicky over this assignment. Before it strikes 1AM, im gonna start the engine & fight till the finish line...even till i DIE!!

Spoke to darling for not more than 5 mins. Sob. He's presently in Tekong going through outfield torments. Poor boy. Well, he sort of dumped me with question marks in the head. Maybe he's not bookin out on Sat, due to some reasons. Im guessing real hard. If only he had like more time to briefly explain to me.
Anyway, i'll still pray hard that i getta see him in 1 days time.
Miss You Darling!!!!!!!

For Now..Inject some moral support, Friends!!! Gogogo!!

whoops...missed an entry for yest..

shall sum up what i did for yest & today then..

met up with Dan bestie for dinner. well, in fact the main reason was to get my DVDs before he commence reservice from tmr.
Those DVDs will last me for two weekends..lalala...
though darling actually planned to catch a movie during this weekend.
i'll prolly persuade him to drop the idea, cos i would rather slack at home.

home sweet home after class today.
no idea why, but it was freezing cold at school. during 15 mins break, i managed to get a jacket from centrepoint. a rather rash decision. till this point in time, i still quite like it. hopefully not have a regretful feeling tmr. loll..

somehow realised im seeing more dark eye rings...
very much like to sleep early tonight, but.....wish only man..
i've still gotta touch on my FA assignment.
otherwise i'll be dashing like a mad cow tmr night.
brr...assignments & more...its until the end of 13 MTHS!! holy sh*t!

alright...busy busy chattin up friends..
darling won't be calling me tonight cos he have done so in the aftern.
he must be busy with the outfield activities! Kambatte darling!! Muackz
LOVE. deeply......

just ended phone conversation with darling...

I missed my darling....My Love.

skipped school today...
no more skipping of classes from now on....

finished partial of my FA assignment.
be staying back after class tmr to work on the software with Jan. Sian.
just wanna get the assignment done once and for all.
the dateline be this fri.
i wanna produced a good work. beat No.1!!

shall hit the sack early...
otherwise i'll really be zombie alive...

met up with darling for an early dinner before we headed back to cck home.

what we had was just Curry FishHead from a coffeeshop nearby darling's place.
i certainly have to publicize a little on the Curry FishHead.
Eversince the first time that i tried, i fell deeply in love with it.
even someone like me who dislike fish would have such fantasy towards the dish...
just proves how yummilicious can it be!

i personally dislike fish. be it steam or fried. im very much afraid of the stench.
however, the curry fishhead doesnt make me feel pukish. heavenly taste.
erm...i just realised i don't know the address.
its rather near Yew Tee mrt control station. 10 mins walk from the station to the coffeeshop. shall find out the address & let u guys know.

so...home sweet home after dinner.
we relaxed abit, played Uno cards while we waited for the HK drama to show.
the result was : 5-3. Darling Lost!!! woo hoo...Nana Won!!!
we pretty much love to slack in a cosy home while we play board/card games.
doesnt have to be outdoor activities that will be consider as a leisure. right??!

darling has booked into camp. nana back home.
will only see darling on the following sat evenin..*Sob....

the next few days...
nana be rushing the FA assignment.
been slackin these few days.
time to pull my socks high....loll...

*Cramps.....i hate it!!!

took a ride from daddy & headed over to cck home.

in the aftern, darling & i dropped by CWP to get power system pills from Nature Farm.
from tmr onwards, will start popping pills & then jolly well kick off with my exercise program. since its tested & proven as claimed by darling. will closely watch the progress...& hopefully see some improvement. loll...
darling bought two bots, one each..cost abt a hundred per bot..*heart pain

well...if it does help, its worth throwin in the money.
intended to get cosmetics from metro, however, there wasnt the partcular brand i was lookin out for. hence, headed home.

dishes we had for dinner:
- chilli crab
- fried beehoon mee
- steam prawns
- broccoli with abalone & gravy

not a plenty of choice but it all tasted yummilicious. esp the chilli crab, always feel like a whole bag full after eating. very easily contented eh. *laughs
darling had to head back to camp shortly after dinnner.
while nana came back home.
papa was pretty surprised to see that i was the one who rang the bell. well...usually sleep over darling's place during weekends. eh huh...Big Surprise!! loll..

not sure if darling be bookin out tmr. im prayin hard that he will be...
otherwise, nana be rottin so badly at home.
i missed U darling.....

a quarter to TWO!!! STILL awake...insomniac AGAIN!!!!

the main cause: i diden hear from my darling piggy the whole day! i missed my darling baby like crazy!!! can't accept the fact that i might not getta see him during weekends. head and heels over DARLING!!! thats it.

another reason: pretty bothered by someone's actions & behaviour.
erm...not that i wanna whine over this particular person or the related matters.
all i can say is...shame on the person. especially a disgrace to the females.

well..whatever the case is..im never that easy to be whopped. try me. hehe.
the assignment be an easy task as of now.
appreciated lecturer's precise explanation.

countdown. 6 days to the dateline of FA assignment. bless us(Jan & I)..Amen

glad to meet up with the polymates for a k-session.
shall meet up oftenly for updates & more updates....plus..GOSSIPS!!!
female's FAV. Hobby!

*If only my phonw would ring at this point of time. even if its an sms, nana would be contented. Sob...
where's my baby??

Creepy...shall not further elaborate...

anyhow...pretty exhausted! i need a proper sleep.
was a whole day event thingy yesterday.
jason gor's V.special day...
let me wish them an everlasting bliss in marriage & grow old together!!

my darling was dressed in formal & looked especially charming with a coat.
He even received compliments from strangers....loll...
& as for Nana....
well...somehow i knew it was coming...first was jason gor...
then followed by a malay lady whom i met at the petrol station while getting stuff.
i wore a green dress...malays find this colour irresistable.
there they go...."hey, u look like a malay!" LOLL...

diden have enough sleep last night...dead beat.
tempted to skip school, however, dropped the idea. *chicken out
don't wanna find trouble with the school or lecturers u see...

exactly a week to finish up my FA assignment...
follow by the e-com....
there ain't ample time to juggle with both.
any kind souls out there to do me a favour??!!
stab me in the heart!!!

i need medicine...
my darling......why ain't he calling me tonight??!
lookin at the time, he prolly not be calling........*Sob..

though we saw each other yesterday...
YET...i missed him badly NOW!! PERIOD.

as i install a program on my lappie..

might as well just post an entry.

realised that i take pleasure in Accounting lessons, despite the fact that i've been feeling lerthagic & reluctant to attend classes...
reason being that for this term, my classes will all be in the aftern.
that means....time clash with the working crowd. train & buses be crammed!
and mind U...its everyDAY!!!! cheezes.

did a little research for both ACCT & Ebiz assignments after class..with Jan..
thereafter, met up with bestie Dan for dinner.
well..he jus wanted to bring in some delight into the current state of my life.
there are UPs & Downs that we ought to go through.
each & every of it were seen as a life experience.
YES...im not giving up yet. or not at all. NEVER.
Bcos "YOU" believe in "ME"!!!!

Swam through the crowd....
was lookin out for a jumper suit. found 1 at Esprit.
sadly, there wasn't a right size for me!!
im anticipating a better choice from somewhere somehow...loll!!

darling be bookin out tmr nite! hurray!
time to hit the sack.....
in Love with the NEW "Nana"...comes along with a New blogskin. smiles.
thats only for the very special ONE to have the benefit of...

Sweet dreams all night....LOVE.

Yesterday. Bolt from the Blue. Theareafter, Rainbow appeared.

dramatic. its like i ought to be mete out. skinned me alive.
can be even worst than that.
i was whopped up by reality.
however, i made it through. safe & sound.
Im Resilient. always remembered someone told me that...

but well...afterall its over..
forget about all. Smiles. Love.

watching tw variety show now....

while my darling baby taking aftern nap..
nana have got nothing to do....not in the mood of studying though...
therefore...SLACK!...until he wakes up.

met up with tracy & dan bestie for dinner last night.
thereafter headed to partyworld for k-session with karin dear, andy & ps.
was a pleasant night..with a delight from "someone"...golly!!!

activities for the weekend will be a...NO answer...

extremely upset with the grouping for the ebiz assignment. PERIOD.
however, i'll work extra hard to make sure i whop up the bitchy group!
quit those apple-polishing acts cos these people might just end up with a rotten brain!!!!! sick.

look forward to a great weekend.....smiles!

Previous night was tough going...
I was wretched....mentally tired, however, wide awake.

Im struggling inside. repeatedly reminded myself to keep improving in my conduct.
So how exactly can we prove ourselves? It take two hands to clap.
If those people who judge us does not give us opportunities or learn to appreciate us, there will never be the day that we can establish goodwill.

I have the opportunity now. I will prove myself. I will make things go on the right track! Thank U for the trust in me. This was one of the greatest opportunity that i obtain from someone.

Wake up feeling fresh this morning.
I know im up to it. Love.

just when i thought this term will be of minimal disturbance..
tolly WRONG!!!!!

hey...."YOU......JEFFREY!!!!".....don't ever hope to hear me calling U by ur name!!!
im so gonna look like a dead-pan in class, no eye contact..
& i'll absolutely be stoning over ur LAME jokes!!!!!!!!
im boiling...how could he have done that without seeking our (Jan & I) approval?!!
SABO US!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!

Jan & i were like toking about it....our dream became a nightmare!!
we really thought we could just worked together...just the both of Us.
however, its never easy unless we can be as "Erh..hem" like someone in class.
things will move in the way that she wants it to be...
i don't care if Ur married & also the eldest among the class.
show some respect.....& act like someone's wife & not some "Erh..hem"!!!

well...anyhow...its FATED!!!
im gonna commence my research for the Ebiz assignment. And for FA1, im gonna missed that for now..cos im pretty lost with ideas, not even knowing how to start.

its the 2nd day of a new term...
everything is working fine. same group of classmates. which means same amount of stress & worries to handle once begin the assignments.
i definitely need some extra activities to pep me up before i start the engine! loll.
building of the momentum ain't an easy task cos afterall i had a 3 weeks break.
im in a denial state that im gonna fight a new battle.
haven been able to sleep well..hence, a dead-pan during class.

many of my classmates have yet to turn up till date..
guess they're still having a good time back in hometown. holiday spirit.

met up with tracy, dan bestie & one of his colleague for dinner.
i ate...diden skip dinner...smiles..
came home ard 9ish..

call came in like ard 10ish..its none other than my darling piggy. *big smile
we chatted for like an hour. darling praised me for the good work that i did in one area. however, he also complained that im over zealous at times. So...nana decided to be more submissive from now, so as to endear myself to darling.

aftern class for the whole week. period.
im yearning for mornin class. then i could come home after classes to take aftern naps. as well as do homework & revision.

spinal problems occurred every now & then.
ignorance caused big problems. i don't want to suffer pain for a lifetime.
will seek consultation from sinseh sometime this week.

checking out some info for my ame bestie.
will hit the sack once im done with it...
nitey nite...

just took a test.."The Celebrity Lookalike"...

pretty impressed with the result...loll!!
totally impossible dream to be like them...
Zoey Tay, Fiona Xie, Tata Young....?????
anyhow...
here's the result...have a good laugh!!

long weekend is over...

at last...im going back to school!!!
no more slacking, over-eating, lazing & blah blah...

dis lunar new year, i've gained 2 kilos!!! its a lot!!!
im going to lose it & drop a size in a few mths time.
bestie said that i seemed to be suffering from mild depression.
i dunno if im really stucked with that but...
my self-esteem is definitely lower now...

omg...its been a long time since i last cried on the phone while talkin to bestie.
think he had a shocked...
been too free to ponder too much...
therefore, i cannot be in relaxation mode, neither can i be too stress over matters. just need to keep my mind occupied at all times..best if it can be the positive brain-storming.

met up with sonia to chill out at tracy's pub..
super budget, we only drank like a jug.
nana had a few songs to sing...
too bad that sonia & i couldnt perform duet.
was nice catching up....since i missed out on her bday celebration!

it'll be an aftern class tmr! great!
my "weight loss project" starts from tmr!!!

darling in thoughts, love.

tolly dead-beat by now..

however, resisting the exhaustion..decided to post an entry of the happenings for the day. *insist!

woke up really early..neither that papa disturb nor anyone in the family woke me on purpose. i apparently woke up from the loud noise & commotion happened within my blk.
one of the unit caught on fire. after washed up, i realised that it wasn't a minor but a major fire brokeout.
fortunately, no one was home. it was a rented out unit. my neighbour was in a shocked when he arrived at the scene. Bolt from the blue...
its like how the hell did it happened?!
Nana pretty curious to find out the main cause.
it took quite sometime to put out the fire. the unit was totally burnt. glass pieces lying around on the ground floor. how sad that it happened.
well most importantly no casualty or death. thank god.
here a pict of the unit..



about an hr or two...bestie arrived at my place.
we had lunch at the coffeeshop together with mummy & papa...
thereafter, mummy left for work...
bestie & i stayed in the room all day. we have no where to go as it was raining buckets outside for almost the whole day.
we chatted...bitched about stuffs....recap those days in sec sch...
those ugly disgusting photos that i kept were taken out to let us have a good laugh over it!! i was seriously in trouble with my size back then. 3 times the size of bestie....unbelieveable that i lose it to this weight now...haha!!
papa couldnt stop suaning bestie regarding her recent weight gain....loll!!
look at some picts i took...

she's a big time vainpot!!


we have the same phone. diff colour. she always steal hp themes from me!! lol!!


had a great time bitching big time!!! thats what life is about baby!

be watching cus piano performance at the Esplanade tmr evenin with mummy...
tagging along be my aunt & cus, godma & terence bro.
fri be meetin my sweetheart in the evening, thereafter headin down to a pub with bro & cousins.

this week schedule so packed!!!
tracy is back in sg...gonna meet up soon...

sun will be the last day of lunar new year...
mornin be eating over at my place, then headin over to darling's place for second round...omg...gonna be oh so FAT! but no worries...
exercise to shed those few kilos that i gained!

right...
here's a pict of my darling fully concentrated in singing..
we went ktv together...just the two of us...last sun....

look how serious my darling baby was.....cool...



this 2 photos brightens up my day!!
i missed U darling!!