i realised this is my 100th post...
how time flies...

was switching from channel to channel, and came across "Tyra" on channel 5.
its a talkshow & happened to be discussing on the topic "self-esteem".

so what exactly is self-esteem?
In psychology, self-esteem or self-worth includes a person's subjective appraisal of himself or herself as intrinsically positive or negative to some degree.
It involves both self-relevant beliefs, emotions & bejaviours.
Tyra Bank interviewed a few kids who self proclaimed that they're fat when they're actually not. And a particular girl who finds herself too skinny, hoping that she could put on weight. Its ironical. Recent news have reported cases of teenagers who yearn to be a model developed eating disorder and led to death.
In the talkshow, it told about a 9 year old girl who starved herself as she did not want to be fat.
Many American models became anorexic due to their "responsibility" in looking skinny & pretty on stage. i personally felt that its totally off beam.

talked about these models, i felt shameful. isn't i like one of those who yearn to be skinny all the time?!
however, to look skinny...we have to go through torments. Crash diets, starving & worst still...dig our throat to throw up the food that we eat.
when do we actually have to go to that extend to feel pretty?!
shouldn't we be happy with what we were born with?
feel fat? Then exercise!
no point starving yourself or complain that you're fat when you eat all sorts of unhealthy food.

from my experience, i managed to lose 10 odd kilos years back. its a sucess, however led to some side effects from the crash diet etc.
i fainted once at a bus-stop due to starvation.
i developed serious gastric problems due to starvation as well...
all that led to a poor health.
Eversince then, i can't eat as much as before..Even if its my fav food..severe pain will haunt me....to date im still havin this problem. how sad.

thats why i decided to exercise. it keeps me feeling fresh, healthy & most of all..
can eat as much but burn off those calories when exercise.
so people....make the right choice!!
Love yourself more....Love your body!

Met up with bestie last evening...
Not headin to anywhere today...home sweet home..

for about 2 weeks..i've consistently been slping at ard 3-6am.
im going through this mental & physical agony.
hence, i've decided to start exercising. since i haven done this for a long long time. im gonna make it a habit to jog every twice a week at least.
im certain that it will improve my sleeping pattern.
shall start from today.....*smiles..

well...been reflecting a lot on myself..thinking about what i have done in 2006.
the right and wrong doings, what should i improve on & stuff like that...
most importantly...FUTURE! im enticipating the starting of a family with darling.
we have been talkin about future plans...he's excited & so am i.

besides this, Nana have been brooding over the job issue.
although i still have a year to go before i graduate, its important to know what exactly a job that im looking for.
i believed that i have mellowed over the years, no longer juvenile.
i don't want to be a job-hopper, neither do i want to stay on in a company if i ain't happy working with the people.
no more pampered Nana...
need to establish the right attitude! have faith in me...

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bestie be heading over to my place tmr mornin to bai nian...
been postponed a few times...finally TMR will be the day!! loll..

feelin kinda slumbering....afternoon nap Yes or No?!

Yes if my darling is here with me, then i can easily sleep with my human bolster.

Thus, No!!!

What should i do now then?

what a splendid weekend...
mouth-watering chilli crab. appetizing youtiao salad & fried toufu.
received a gift from darling. smiles.
wasnt any special day but just a delight.

stars shining above us wherever we go...its love..

some picts to share again...

**these 2 dishes was what we ordered @Bosses Vivo City



actually there was another dish, but diden take pict of it.
anyhow Nana diden have any of it...
i nibbled on a plate of fruits priced pretty steep.

**Karin dear & Andy




We simply love taking pictures wherever we go.
The interior design of the restaurant is rather posh.

and...it was like world-weariness..
the three of us actually competed on innovative picture taking by making use of a piece of wall & a Voda-voda water bottle.

here are the pictures...
guess which is mine?





shall finish at this point...
its nearly half passed two.....
sleep deprive mode, however, concurrently insomnia. Weird.
Goodnight. Hugs.

home sweet home after a short meet up with my poly mates & some of their friends.

met up with Karin dear & Andy for dinner at Vivo City, Bosses Restaurant.
was a quickie cos we had to rush over to the Mind Cafe to meet up with Kayboon Ps & their friends.
was my first time to the cafe...
they taught me a new game named "Saboteur". interesting.
however, wasn't really in the mood of playing card games...
was feeling lerthagic & prolly its gotta do with the group, afterall its the first time we meet.

be meeting up with the guys CK, GW & WN tmr....
Nana gonna be attacked with Turbo Suaning Combo!! Damn...
why SL always not free?!!! then i have to handle those guys alone.....
im sure to lose!!! arghh...

though i brought my camera along, but picts were taken with Karin's camera.
shall wait till she upload & send me.....

well...there are still some picts to share....
the very VAIN Nana took picts of herself....4 shots lying at the same position..






eh huh...here's one that i like....
the pict reflects the REAL NANA!!!



(Im seeing my darling tmr....Weet!)

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!
Feat. Ella & Wu Zun......

a long phone conversation....

we talked a lot. i can feel the seriousness and sincerity of yours from the other side of the phone.
there are many things to take into consideration...
its not about just us, but also the very impt pple in our lives.

both of us would very much like to round things up, but provided we have the capability.
im already 23 this year. in one years time i'll graduate and officially stepped into the working world, and have a taste of the realistic of society and people out there.
those previous perm or temp positions that i took up are just for exposures and experiences.
while after graduation, I need to work for a family. A family of mine....

i see papa with more grey hairs......
my small mummy also ageing. I want to do my part to provide them with a good life.
darling promised to go through this life with me.
Im glad that he's been treating my parents so well. *smiles..thumbs up

whether its 2008 or 2009.....
we have decided to work hand in hand to make our future a better one....

our love is silent......care and companion are indispensable.
this love comprises of all the goodness.....with a little sour or bitter taste once in a while...
nothing is more perfect than that!

May this love last a decade....................

Stomach upset.....visited the toilet twice....
may have had unclean food yesterday! but it feels SHIOK man!!! i have been havin constipation, so its great that i can clear my bowels so easily...loll...

Be meeting my bestie boy for dinner and manicure...loll..
guys can go for manicure as well alright!!!
Im rather not keen on dinner.

Anyway, yesterday visit to Jo's place was good.
we did a lot of catching up....& watched a super lame yet funny show...
was nice meeting up after such a long while haven seen Jo.
all of us are busy with studies or work, all grown-ups!!
shall see who will get married first?!!

be meetin my dear for movie tmr....NORBIT!!!
we always watch comedy movie together...really missed those good old days.
hopefully the movie will cheer her up!!

Nana currently watching 轉角遇到愛 [Corner With Love] by Xiao Zhu & Da S.
Its nice!! but not as nice as HANA KIMI!!!!!!
wonder when did i start going crazy over all these taiwan drama serials..
Im going head over heels....*red alert! hahahaha....
Hear the song playing on my blog? its the theme song for the Drama "Corner With Love"...very nice isn't it?
i don't just purely listen to songs that are popular...
i like songs that have meaningful lyrics and nice tune...usually fall under the love songs category.

My Hana Kimi only left with 2 episodes!!!!!! Nooooo......

since yesterday.....Nana havent stopped laughing inside out...

its how silly that i always thought im the only one hoping that the special wish will come true.
but im not alone from now on.......i have darling who will support me all the way.
im seriously surprised with what darling told me.....
whatever it is...i know you will stay by my side to support me through.

i thank god for bringing someone almost near to perfect into my life.
its like a dream come true...a fairytale story..
so who says fairytale story doesnt happened these days in real life?!
its whether or not we try to make things beautiful.

No one can ever be as sweet as my baby darling.
Thank you for being so thoughtful, always put me in the first place.
Thank you for treating me like a princess.
Thank you for doting on me so much that made me the most fortunate girl and the wealthiest girl in heart.

Darling made my life so beautiful. We may have had arguements, quarrels....however, our love is still as strong as ever......

We still talk on the phone every night. We never fail to kiss goodnight.
This love is so true...so perfect in our eyes!
Its supposed to be 2009....but i guess it might turn out to be 2008.....
whatever it is....may we grow old together, and hold hands forever.

To MY DARLING PIGGY....Deepest Love to One & Only YOU!!!! *MUACKS

its the 4th day of CNY......

in an hrs time be heading over to Jo's place with bestie..

1st day was at my place....nice catching up with all my relatives...*smiles...
On 2nd day, we headed to popo's place.........very surprisingly my bro stayed till dinner this year!
Usually he will only stay around for a couple of hrs then head out to meet his friends..
my aunts uncles....be it young or old....we gathered together to gamble....
Nana super "heng" la......lost 70 bucks!!!!!!! Damn it!!

And for yest....bcos the night before Darling got into some trouble in malaysia...
their car window kana smashed...all passports stolen plus cash and handphone...
Nana stayed up till 5AM to wait for their updates...
thank god they still make it back by mornin....
Nana then went over to bai nian....thereafter, Darling came over to my place to bai nian.

My Darling baby win bit of money in Genting....
therefore, Nana will getta share the joy.....cos Baby gonna get something for Nana...
Yippe!!!

This CNY im so HAPPY!!!!!

I think im learning to let go of things that don't belong to me.....or i should put it in a way that it will not be what that belong to my world...
Im happy with what i have now....
Happy that no one is forcing me to do things which i dislike...

EVERYONE!!!! LETS BE HAPPY...That's most IMPORTANT thing!!!

"HAPPY LUNAR PIGGY YEAR!!!!!!!!"

still in the midst of seeing more relatives comin to my place...

but Nana just wanna take a breathe.....stay away from the noise for a little while.
pretty sad to see my fifth uncle.....i almost burst into tears.
although he went through an operation for his colon cancer last year, he had a relapse.
before he went off, he said: "next year its my turn, all of you coming to my place" with a smile on his face, though i knew that he's in pain.

everyone just wished that he would just keep staying strong...keep moving on year by year.
it is a torture to endure the pain but isn't it better to live on and see all our loved ones for a longer time?! besides, my cousin-in-law is pregnant. my uncle be a grandfather soon..

good people don't deserve such treatment.
if only i can be of some supernatural power to help all my loved ones.....

have a blissful NEW year!!! lotsa love everyone....*smiles

im at the bottleneck...........not that im angry, but im super duper exhausted!!!!!!

i think i can't stay up any later...gonna hit the sack!!

my darling baby is in Genting right now. every year his family would spend their CNY and eve there.....baby called me awhile ago to inform that he have reached..if only i can be there with him....

i've watched 13 episodes of Hana Kimi which is the episode played till in taiwan....
looking forward to 14!!!!!!
met up with bestie to chill last nite...and i recommended her to watch Hana Kimi and she got addicted....loll...

missed out on my gd fren's bday which was last nite as well.....
i hope she understands cos i really wun enjoy the company if i was there.....

shall slp now......relatives be all comin over tmr......
not a good thing to play host......its definitely gonna be taxing....

missing my baby darling now.......

im still awake.....

just popped 2 flu pills to assist me in knockin out real soon.
im seriously seeing more than just dark eye rings.....

just finished watching Hanazakarino Kimitachihe (Hana Kimi) Episode 4...
will continue with Episode 5 tmr!!!!!!

wonder what time will i wake up....woo.....super tired by now!!! nitey...

im seeing my baby in less than a day.....WEE!!!!

Valentine's Day is over.....
But......to me, its never ending......"Everyday is a special day for darling & I!"

pretty upset about something that happened just a quarter hour ago. hopefully everything is back to normal at this point of time..

[Interruption!!]
My darling baby just called. Im gonna see him TMR!!!!!!!!! Yippe!!!! Im always excited when he book out........its been almost a year, im still the same......*giggles...

a person commented that i've changed. in fact, people who knows me in & out will be most clear about Nana having changed or not. well...even if i did, im changing for the better. sometimes i've to act according to the situation. its either be nice or nasty....actually not even nasty, but just give cold shoulder. it depends a lot on the person that you are talking about. im sorry that sometimes i just need to be a meanie in order to round up things, otherwise there will never be a full stop.

i love all my darling friends who accepted me as who i am.....
i may not be perfect, but i seek to give the best that i can.....

this new year...may everyone be happy, happy & more happy than ever!!!

reached home quite awhile....

met up with bestie to do some cny shopping at chinatown.
Nana bought an air purifier.........and the solution Oceania....the room smells wonderful now!!

well...we encountered some disturbing act....i wished those baskets ass-hoo would suffer bad return for such indecent behaviour!!!!

my knee and feet aching badly now.....its been sucha long time since i last shopped and walk for so many hrs.

Its Vday!!!!! darling won't be here with me....
its not sad though....cos....everyday is like Vday for darling and I!!!!
as long as there's love, everyday is a special day with love, love and more more love.

just spoke to darling on the phone, muah poor boy have had a long day at the live range.
though diden get the incentive, but im sure my darling baby did a good job. *smiles...

can't wait to see my baby soon........

Nana's room clean clean.....

Proceeding with the living room.......

"Nana the Maria" working hard...........

I MISSED my darling baby......

BABY!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU LIKE CRAZY.......LOVE YOU TO THE CORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Without my darling baby...Nana can never have a good life!!!!! REALLY!!!
Thank you for making the rest of the days happy ones.....
Darling really touched me deep down, greatly appreciated whatever he had done for me!
However, i felt bad. In order to do something for Nana, Darling will go all the way...even willing to sacrifice sleep or anything.

Where on earth can i find someone else who can be like my Darling Piggy??!!!! *HARD

My mood is so so pretty.....
Im happy....V.E.R.Y Happy!!!

Nana is sucha 100% Missy Fortunate!! *Spank Nana's ass......"don't ever think otherwise about my love for you"......"I LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!".........

Hehe.....i just love it when darling calls me silly....and especially telling me how much he loves me!! Im melting.............

Darling is "WONDERFUL"!!!!! My Hero!! My SUPERMAN!!!!!!

it happened once again..
pretty shaken this time.....its hard to describe the feeling at this point of time.
its heartaching when you can't stop thinking that its might all along been one-sided...

stop the hurt.....
Maybe its just the right time to learn to let go...

waterfall caused head spinning.....

is this just a bad dream? or a nightmare that will haunt me for the rest of my life?

Still not in Lala~ land....
perhaps im too excited about seeing darling tmr, my hormones are reacting!!
OR maybe, i just wanna make myself more tired..then i'll wake up later...
and......the 1st person that i see when i open my eyes will be darling!! hahaha...
well you see...even if i slp at 1-ish, i usually wake up latest by 9ish.
darling will prolly reach here latest by 10 tmr.....
so i must wake up later than 10!!! cos i know baby will hug me when im still aslp...
the best moment in life is to wake up seeing your beloved one....
haven seen darling for a week.....missed him like nuts!!!

I' ve been on Youtube from 11 till now. Well...channel U will be exclusively showing this Tw drama, that i thought was a pretty interesting story. Hence, decided to watch the first episode on Youtube. Its indeed a hilarious yet romantic drama. I find that the character that Jiro Wang played super comical. However...the past few hrs been taxing for my pair of eyes!!!
Shall catch it on Channel U from 15th Feb onwards....

really time to hit the sack.....
usually i wish that time will pass slowly.....especially when im exhausted, needs longer hrs of slp. but tmr will be an exception.....i hope time will pass quickly!!!

In a severe brain-drained situaution......*Yawn

[Hanazakarino Kimitachihe]: a popular Japanese manga starring Ella from S.H.E, Wu Zun and Jiro Wang from Tw boyband "Fahrenheit".

watched the tw news that reported on Beatrice Xu's Memorial Concert.....
im seriously touched! words that were said...made me waterfall.....
i was watching her clips on Youtube, it just felt like yesterday...

lost of a life....it happened all around the world everyday. but its really a pity for those that have such kind hearts. God has his plans for everything. Maybe Beatrice Xu have been sent to heaven to receive his new mission in being an angel. Her beautiful smile, sweet voice and the pretty face will forever be in everyone's heart. This little angel will be around watching over all her loved ones.....

this taught me a lesson. to cherish my life...& to cherish everyone around me...
cherish is not just about having that person in the heart....
each individual should constantly show their care and concern for the ones that they love!
anything can happen in a day....don't wait till the chance is forfeited then to regret not doing something that you should do all the while.
maybe i might leave this world earlier or someone might leave before me.....but whatever it is...we should never be face with regrets......
do whatever you like when you still have the opportunity......

just like Me.....i know i will never be young forever. thats why i decided to have a short bob haircut.....i might not be able to try that when im 10 years older....
my resolution for 2007: "to care, to love, to be brave and be willing to try!!!"

MY DEAR FAMILY, DEAR DARLING, BESTIES & MY GURLS!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!! I will always be here for all of you!! Even if one day i leave before you, i will be each of your guardian angel watching over you people...*Hugs

ITS OFFICIALLY H-O-L-I-D-A-Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

starting from next week, Nana will be on 3 weeks break!!! wee!!!!
can't wait to see my darling piggy on sat!!!!! have a whole list of items to purchase...darling be accompanyin me to IKEA Tampines!! besides this, i already draw out the floor plan for the new layout of my room....it will serve the purpose when the time comes...cos darling be helping me with the revamp on sun!!! yippe!!!
i can inter-change the positions of the furnitures, spice up my life man...
been staring at the same wall for years....(when im at the computer desk...exactly where i m seated NOW!!!)

I need plenty of new stuff to add on to my room...hehe...so excited...

darling called me mins away from exam time...i managed to speak to him. and it really help to boost my confidence....i would say that i did pretty well for the paper...
however, the results will still be dependent on markers (biased character & uni lecturers).
i seriously felt like i have laid down the burden on my shoulders!! was so heavy that its gonna pin me down, and i prolly wun get up from there...cos im easily discouraged...

alright...mummy be off tmr...spring cleaning time......

(one more day to seeing my baby darling piggy.........) *BIG Smile!!

its exactly 2 hrs 17 mins away from exam.....

i have done my very best to get all facts into my head.....

I REALLY HOPE I CAN DO WELL FOR THIS PAPER!!!!!

not gonna let those "bootlickers" get their way...to think that by doing all the pleasing act they will make it through with good grades?! i don't think so. there's still justice...
of course....that biased character shall watch me perform...hahaha....

alright....time to go.....
thank U everyone for the wishes!!! hee......

im laughing from ear to ear.....

finally heard from darling...he's been away at the jungle for like a day & i don't getta talk to him for the whole of yesterday. im overjoyed after receiving his call...!!!!!!

somehow i've got the drive to study even harder with all the encouragements from darling. he's the powerful figure in my life...u see he can do magics in my life...really see a difference..!!

well im done with my revision...all the memorising...i hope i don't wake up losing all my memory.
then its all gonna be a waste of my effort....
im praying hard that i will pass tmr's paper...& hopefully get a distinction for this module..i ain't greedy cos i worked extremely hard.
never been so hardworking throughout...not during secondary nor poly...im really proud of myself!!! *smiles...

Friends...pls wish me good luck!!! i've already received a long distance wish from T...*smiles..
and also from my dearest dudu....not forgetting the most impt person DARLING!! and my besties.......im sure with all the wishes i'll do a good job tmr!!!! gogogo....

doo doo doo doodoodoo......

im going nuts having to study 6 solid chapters for marketing paper tmr....
im actually left with 2 more chapters to go....decided to take break before i really turn out a nutcase. don't wanna be send to the IMH...my house is pretty near to that horrigible place!!!

felling tired....initial plan is to take an aftern nap so that i can stay awake through the night to get as much facts into this little pea brain of mine.....
so much to memorise....all so similar, getting kinda confused now....
key factors with sub points and then sub again......
why must these marketing writers make things so confusing eh??!!! are they humans or some outerspace creatures with all the funny styles of writing...loll...

im imagining jan going nuts while she studies in her room....
we talked on the phone for like an hour....she complaint that when she closes her door and shut the windows, there was no ventilation. then she decided to power on the air-conditioner...however ended up with flu....
and she's gettin giddy while studying......
she's so much more S-T-R-E-S-S than me man......looks like im still pretty cool and calm...haha...

im kinda half-hearted to carry on with revision....wanna watch tv then continue but i know i have not much time left la....
all thanks to bestie who called to disturb...break my momentum...i was so concentrating on memorising the facts....i hope i don't lose them....
maybe i should learn from doraemon! place the bread in between the pages that i need to memorise, then eat the bread....hahaha.....and ta-dah.....i'll be full of facts in my brain!!!
right....im really going abit haywire.....

time to knock off from bloggin.....i'll be back soon.....hahaha....

i need my piggy darling to be here with me!!!!!!! only he can bring peace into my life....
" I MISSED YOU BADLY BABY!!!!!!!!"

its the year of pig..........
my darling's year....& also....we are the piggies family!
therefore, Nana decided to change the blogskin to one that has pig pictures.
luckily i found one that is quite nice...

enough of resting. had my breakfast & lunch...ate twice in 2 hrs...bread with coffee, then rested for an hr and had porridge...im seriously gonna ballooned!!! lolll......
but it doesnt matter, cos my baby darling likes!!! hahaha...

ok...last paper tmr!! n i'll be FREE!!!!!!!!! officially HOLIDAY!!!! Wee....!!!

there are still things to worry about...but i've decided to throw them aside for now...
need to really concentrate on my studies right after i finished blogging!!!!!
Kambatte........i know I CAN DO IT~

im worrying more than i should.....not only about exam.........but also pple around me that im more concerned about.

i realised how fragile life is.....i don't wish to see any of my loved ones get hurt or just missed out from my life.

"i have no much time le...just wanna say take care all my friends and smile always!!"
i hope im not thinkin too much about this particular sentence......isit a hint that this person is going to leave this world soon? i never want this to happen......

i've been thinkin a lot for the whole day.....
i wana convinced myself that i can get over it, but all these years it doesnt seemed to go away.
if only it diden happened....if only i save the situation.
im happy.....but whenever i think about it.....i'll start getting depressed....
nobody can help....there is only a way to help myself.....but it wouldnt happen as yet...
or maybe never to think on the negative side...

can everyone just be happy? be healthy? Bcos i loved u ALL!!!

have a safe journey home my dear T......

Ah hah......i've let it all out.....all cool now.....

happy things to share about.....hehehe.....

met up with T for shopping.......(when im supposed to studying at home!!..ha...) Accompanied her to get gifts for her visit back to China. both bought the same pair of pump of different colour. was a good buy......cheap and nice!! *smiles
dinner had sushi....bestie joined us after work. bestie bought us each a packet of pastry....very nice!!! the very first time i tried, i fall in love with it. bestie claimed that he sensed that i'll date him today so he got his colleague to buy him the packets of pastry. dunno how true was that la....majiam like he got sixth sense......maybe i should ask him for 4 numbers eh...lolll!!!

anyway, my eye is much much better now! but somehow, mummy is still worried. she's still trying to persuade me to consult the doctor. Nana don't see the need unless the problem occurs again. so meahwhile i'll take real good care of my pretty eyes.....haha.....

im gonna be grounded for the next 2 days so that i can study hard for my paper on thurs. im left with like 2 1/2 day.....7 chapters to study but im only done with 3....trying to catch up......
feeling super sleepy now. im not gonna torture my eyes, neither do i wana cause another red alert on my health or whatsoever to do with my body. so.......im gonna sleep NOW!!! hahaha....

tmr will be a better day.....no worries....no disturbance......no pests......
i'll bury myself in piles of books and papers....lolll.......

spoke to my darling twice today.......only twice.........
i seriously missed him like hell....its like my limbs not functioning when he's not by my side.
i wan my human bolster....my 24 hrs huggable bolster.......
5 more days to seeing my baby darling..............................wee.....

THIS ENTRY WILL PURELY BE FOR VENTING MY ANGER!!!!!!!!!!

I really dont understand some people. Its like explaining serve no purpose cos when a person don't listen...nothing goes in.....whatever is said or done are put to waste. So pointless.....
Try to be nice.....try to work things out so that it will be a win-win situation...but ended up stomach all the maligns and accusation. Right from the start it was all a mistake. VERY BIG MISTAKE~

Im putting this all aside from now. Don't see the need to be kind anymore.
Never felt so angry!!!! the 1st and the LAST!!!!!!!!

for those who knows about my eye problem....don't worry, i won't fall so easily. but if it doesnt get better by tmr, i will consult a doctor for real....though i really dislike visiting doctors.
well frankly speaking...it really scared the shit out of me last night. when i first saw my swollen eye and the crumpled layer at the corner of my eye...

in the mornin, it got better after i used the ice pack. at least not as swollen, and....i don't feel that tired like my eyes gonna shut anytime. could hardly open my eye in the mornin. however, right at this point, my eye looked better. thankfully...just hope it'll be normal by tmr mornin. if not, i tink i'll be escorted by anyone to the hospital A&E. i don't want to blind, so i'll be extra careful from now on. Bestie could still even joke that i'll stand a higher chance to get into superstar for the next season, like kelvin tan an example.....it ain't funny dude!!!

though im feelin bit tired. but i'll still do some studying right after i shut down the comp. need to at least finish 2 chapters cos i merely touch on chap 1, and i have another 8. nitey nite to everyone....

(*missed piggy very badly....)

In life, there are many situations that we cannot take control. Sometimes, we just tell ourselves we should be positive..in true life how many people could actually stick to it. we live each day hoping that people around us stay healthy. However, at times we sort of neglected them due to busiest schedule be it work or school. that makes it as though we are not bothered or don't even give a damn. Many a times, people just speak their mind. it could be out of sincerity or just a sarcastic remark, but have they actually put themselves in the other party's shoe? will the the remark have an impact on the other person? isit hurtful?
I agree that we shouldnt think too much and just speak the truth. but....it has got to be justified. saying something without even thinking, it can be out of assumption. we should always not malign or put blames on others. we are never born with that authority.

what is hurt? i've been hurt many times....getting abit numb with all the words thrown at me when she doesnt even take a second thought before tellin me. although im always injured by the very same person..i still love her. if she ever feel so. cos in my dreams.....since the day that bad came visit us, i have always been gettin bad dreams. i cried while dreaming, waking up feeling like its real. so horrifying. terrible feeling.

how i wish..................
i just want to be happy with "you all"....................

had a good time k-ing this mornin with T......its been quite sometime back that we went k together. im so in a holiday mood now....can't bring myself to start studyin for marketing. if darling knows that i've still not started on my revision, will sure split me into pieces..loll...

K dear jio-ed me for dinner, im so tempted to leave the house.......
all im thinkin for the past few days is about CNY preparations...revamp my room....to buy wall cabinet or just the floor cabinet...to get a bigger wardrobe or just the roller hanger......strenuous brain exercise....loll...
i really wana start on a spring clean, but i can't do some till my exam is over. whenever its exam, my room will look like its been through war...haha...im serious...its tolly in a mess now....

feelin quite tired..was on the phone with bestie last nite, and we talked till like nearly 2ish. luckily he noticed that i had less words to talk....its like before and after. i talked so loudly at the beginnin...then slowly battery ran low...and finally about to die anytime...hahahaha....
worst still...whenever i talk to darling on the phone till late night, i will start talkin rubbish..haha...

shld i tk a nap? nap = fat......i don't wan to be fat but im exhausted....
eversince the revision break starts...i've never had a proper sleep....i missed my darling so much. if only he's here with me and Nana can hug him to sleep.........my 24-hrs bolster...kaka...
i think i shld slp for awhile....so that i can stay up late to study!!!! oh man........
just the last paper to go...........................

oh yeah....im a red hair girl!!!!

had a major hair revamp...hair dye, haircut and treatment. it took ard 4 hrs to complete.....

but......it double the hrs of mine for dudu......its guaranteed "pain in her ass"...Lolll...she had a lightening, bleach and 3 times of hair dye...thats equals to severe hair damage....poor girl...

im very satisfied with the colour and haircut...though i realised that its long and short for the sides. mummy said its "in" to have long short hair....i really have no comments...ha...
this red hair dye will prolly tahan for 6 weeks or if there's a miracle...maybe it'll last abit longer. so that means after that im going to dye black again......hahaha...

had enough rest....im gonna start my revision for marketing tmr. shall lock myself up the whole day so bro cun disturb me.....he insist that i must dye his hair for him. im always doing it for him n i dun mind...but u know thereafter he'll start complainin that colour not even out or things like that. if im really that pro, i can be a hairstylist then...

missin darling badly......he's been with me for the past few days wen i burnt midnite oil for ada paper. however, for the next few days...im not gonna have him around. darling wun be bookin out this weekend....will only be able to see him next weekend...how sad....
my resolution for 2007....be a good girl....be obedient.....n not so "yang orh".....lol..

here's picts of nana's new look...




(**im so not photogenic!!! i know i looked gross on this last pict!!)